The Deepest Longing

Lillian Sparrow had just finished repairs in a tiny access tunnel on the Helicarrier when her supervisor walked up to her. “There you are! Are the repairs completed?” “Yes sir, I’ve finished with this section. I’m going to move on to the next.” Lilly says. “Not right now. The Director wants to see you.” He says. “The Director? What for?” Lilly feels a little concerned. She has only been with SHIELD for 3 months and her probationary period is just about over. And what a probation it was. The Hulk and the God of Thunder nearly ripped the ship apart. “I don’t know. Whatever it is it’s classified. He wouldn’t tell me.” “So it’s not my 3 month evaluation then I take it?” “Nope it’s not that. He’s in his office waiting for you.” “Thank you sir.” She says. Her boss leaves her to check on the rest of the repairs as she turns down another hallway to see Director Nick Fury. She can’t help but wonder what he could possibly want with her.
Lilly is an electrician by trade. A petite mousy little thing, she barely stands at 5ft 5in tall. She is a beautiful lithe 22 year old with waist length black hair (when not in a bun) and hazel eyes. Her recruitment into SHIELD was unconventional. Most of the people that work for SHIELD are military types, which is why they needed her. Many of the access tunnels on the Helicarrier are very small and most of the personnel for SHIELD are large athletic males, especially the electricians. SHIELD sought her out specifically because of her size. They sent her to a basic training program of sorts to teach her how to use weapons and such. This suited her fine. She grew up in a navy family and was comfortable with this setting. She is also very athletic. Lilly had almost majored in dance, specifically ballet, but the life of a professional dancer is tenuous and filled with unsteady paychecks. She decided to choose a major that provided financial security.
Financial security is very important to Lilly. She watched the hell both of her older sisters went through when they got knocked up as teenagers and were ditched by their boyfriends with newborn babies. Her sister Emily managed to make it on her own. Her sister Sarah had not. Sarah had run off with some guy and ended up homeless with an infant in tow. Lilly watched her older sisters growing up and decided early on that their fates would not be hers. Lilly is still a virgin.
Lilly makes her way to Nick’s office and knocks on the door. She hears his reply and enters. They greet each other and shake hands. “Have a seat Miss Sparrow. Miss Sparrow I have asked you here today to ascertain whether or not you would be suited to a very dangerous mission. First I must ask you, did you know Agent Coulson personally, and did you ever speak to him before he died?” “No sir, I’d heard his name but I never personally met the man.” “Secondly, I understand you grew up on the California Coast, do you know anyone or have any friends or family from New York City?” “No sir, I don’t know anyone and have never been.” “Do you consider yourself to be a vindictive or petty person Miss Sparrow?” Lilly quirks an eyebrow at this. She is not entirely sure where this is going. “No sir, I do not. May I ask why you would ask me that?”
“My records indicate you were not on board ship when Loki was present, you were at weapons training is that correct?” Lilly breaks out in a cold sweat. Loki is the monster that attacked New York City with an alien army. He’d torn the Helicarrier apart and killed several people on board including Agent Coulson, who was by all accounts a good and decent man. What does the Director want her do about Loki? Lilly nods her answer to Fury. “Loki is awaiting transport back to Asgard with his brother Thor at Stark Tower. Thor has taken Loki’s spear and is currently using it to control Loki the way he controlled the minds and actions of our people, to keep him detained. The only jail cell on earth that could hold this criminal has been destroyed. Using the spear to take away Loki’s free will was a practical solution to keeping him from escaping. Unfortunately, Thor is having a hard time resisting the temptation to punish Loki through less than ethical means. None of the personnel at Stark Tower can be trusted with this power over Loki either. The desire for vengeance is too great. We need an unbiased third party to take control until the transport device is finished. It has taken longer than expected to create the device. Stark anticipates it will be ready in another 2 weeks or so. I would like you to take control of the spear and of Loki during the time he has remaining here on Earth.”
Lilly digests everything the Director said. He is picking her because of her lack of emotional connection to everything that has happened. It is a rare opportunity, one she is not likely to get again anytime soon. Taking on such a responsibility could mean an advancement or promotion of some kind. Loki is a Prince of Asgard and in the custody of the human race until he goes home. If anything happens to him before he faces justice before his own people it could set off an interplanetary war. This is one hell of a babysitting gig. “How exactly do I use the spear to control him?” She asks. Fury smiles and goes over the details with her. Within the hour she is on a helicopter headed to Stark Tower.
Steve Rogers was pleasantly surprised to hear that a new babysitter for Loki had been found in only a few hours. Standing on the helipad of Stark Tower, the Captain wondered what kind of person Fury had selected for the job. Steve considers himself an honorable man. He would have taken over the duties of the spear if he had been asked. Though truth be told, he was grateful that no one had. The helicopter lands and Lilly steps off. She looks like a shorter version of agent Maria Hill. Captain America does his best to conceal a scowl. She is just a girl. How can Fury expect her to keep the God of Mischief in line? He greets her cordially and escorts her inside the building.
Lilly is overwhelmed by the experience. First she is star struck at meeting Captain American, then Tony Stark (a.k.a. Iron Man), and then Thor the God of Thunder himself. Thor looks her up and down. Lilly can tell he is questioning the Director’s selection of her. “You are a very lovely young maiden Miss Sparrow. Are you sure you are up to the task of controlling my brother?” He asks her. “It is my understanding that I was selected because I have no emotional involvement in the recent attacks. Unlike present company I harbor no vindictive feelings or desires to harm Loki. I do desire seeing him face justice, which he will do once he returns home. I promise to act ethically and responsibly towards your brother for the remainder of his time here. I will not abuse the power that the spear will give me over him.” Lilly says. This answer satisfies most of the people present. She does not need to be strong to control Loki, she only needs be ethical and mature in her treatment of Loki.
Tony takes a moment while Lilly is talking to Thor about Loki to call Fury. “Hey Fury, Loki’s new babysitter is here, where did you find her, the local high school?” “Agent Sparrow is the best candidate for this particular situation. She is a professional and more importantly, she doesn’t harbor a desire to tell Loki to jump off the building to his death.” “She looks like jail bait Nick!” “Her small physical stature notwithstanding, she will do just fine. If you feel nervous about it you can keep an extra eye on both of them while they are there. Have that robot butler of yours keep tabs on them.” “Oh I’m already on it.” Stark hangs up.
Thor and Lilly turn to Tony. “Anthony if you would be so kind as to escort Miss Sparrow and myself to your lab, it is time for her to meet Loki.” Lilly looks at the spear in Tony’s left hand. It looks like a wicked killing weapon with a glowing blue crystal ball at the end. It is beautiful in a very lethal sort of way. She can’t help but admire the aesthetics. Tony’s face is a mask of emotionlessness. But his eyes say he feels guilty about something. All three of them get on the elevator to head down the lab level. When they step off just outside the lab door Tony speaks. “Uh, well, you know Point Break; I can take it from here. I can tell her everything she needs to know from this point forward.” Thor isn’t fooled for a second. “Anthony what did you do to Loki?” He accuses. “Thor I’m shocked and appalled that you would think that I might have taken advantage of my ownership of the spear these last few hours. All I have done is ask Loki to help clean up around the Tower. Is that so bad?” Thor ignores Tony completely and walks past him into the lab. Thor is greeted by the sight of Loki holding a feather duster and wearing a very provocative black and white dress.
“I’m all done cleaning the lab Mr. Stark. Is there anything else I can do for you?” Loki beams brightly. “Stark!” Thor booms at Tony. “He did throw me out of a window on the top floor of my tower you know.” He says to Lilly. Lilly eyes take Loki in. He is about a foot taller than her and very thin compared to Thor. But she can see that he is not skinny. The French Maid costume he is wearing is low cut and is showing very well defined pectoral muscles as well as sculpted biceps and lean strong legs. In fact, he looks like a ballet dancer. “Give me that!” Thor yanks the spear out of Tony’s hands “Loki I order you to change back into your regular clothes immediately!” With wave of his hand Loki’s dress disappears and is replaced with an outfit that looks like it came right out of the movie Braveheart. The green long sleeved V-neck shirt makes him look elegant. It is paired with black leather pants and a skirt-like leather outer cover not unlike what the romans used to wear. His black hair is shoulder length and curls up just slightly at the ends. His skin is like porcelain and his cheek bones are flawless. But his eyes, glowing blue like the spear are blank and soulless. Were it not for this one facet of his appearance he would ooze an aura of danger from his very pores.
“Loki this is Miss Lillian Sparrow. She will be taking charge of you for the remainder of the time we are here on Midgard. She will possess the spear at all times and make sure you are on your best behavior.” “As you wish brother.” Loki says placidly. Loki turns his gaze to Lilly. This is the man that tried to conquer Earth. Hitler. This man is a Hitler, Lilly tells herself. He will face his own trial for his crimes against humanity when he returns home. It is enough for her to know this. She smiles at Loki the way a teacher might smile at a confused child. “Hello Loki, my name is Lilly. You and I will be spending a lot of time together over the next few days. I understand you have been working on cleaning up the damage you caused throughout the city. Is there any work that still needs to be done?” “Yes there is, though Thor and I have managed to repair most of the large scale damage, what is left is small trivial spaces that the mortals have most likely already cleaned up themselves.” Loki says calmly. If Lilly didn’t know better she could swear there was the faintest note of disdain in Loki’s voice. Underneath the spear’s control, Loki is ambivalent about fixing what he destroyed, Lilly is certain. “I will leave you to it then.” Thor says to Lilly. Thor leaves the lab and gets back on the elevator; he has to pick up Jane from the airport.
Lilly decides to spend the rest of the day in the lab with Tony and Loki. As an electrician she is fascinated by the work that Tony is doing. Tony’s high I.Q. is not just talk and ego. He is a genuinely brilliant man, and he knows it. During their time in the lab Lilly notes that Loki does things for her without her asking. He brings them coffee, made just the way each of them likes and pulls out materials and research reference guides for Tony before he even realizes he needs them. Lilly begins to understand the dilemma Thor and the other Avengers were in. Loki doesn’t just respond to commands, he responds to unspoken desires. He anticipates the wants of whoever controls him. Right now, every other person in this building would desire nothing more than for Loki to kill himself. There’s a diplomatic nightmare in the making. No wonder Fury had tapped her to take control of this situation. She is feeling neither vengeful nor bloodthirsty nor petty. Hopefully the next two weeks will pass by without incident.
That evening Tony shows Lilly to her new room which is right next door to Loki’s new room. She escorts Loki to his room and wishes him good night, and of course orders him to not try to escape. After showering she crashes onto her large luxurious bed and pulls her cell phone out to call her sister Emily. Lilly is dying to spill the beans to somebody about what she is doing, but knows she can’t. So she satisfies herself by listening to her big sister Emily drone on and on about the joys (and annoyances) of motherhood. Emily gave birth to her second child 3 months ago. She is only 5 years older than Lilly and already she has two children (with different fathers) and a husband. Lilly is a 22 year old virgin that has never been on a date. After a day of being surrounded by gorgeous famous beefy muscular superheroes, Lilly is feeling more than a little frustrated. More than that though, she wishes she had a family of her own. A husband and child to cherish. She feels a pang of jealousy towards her sister, but reminds herself that she is still young and has plenty of time to find a man and that she wouldn’t switch places with Emily for anything. She will have children….someday.
Loki awakens to the sensation of desire emanating from his new master. She desires something which he can provide. It will please her. However, she is a virgin and breaking her maidenhead will hurt. He does not wish to hurt his new master. He needs a solution which will satisfy the situation. Of course, magic! He will put a spell on her to keep her asleep while he impregnates her. This is wonderful. His new master will be so pleased!

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