Cry of Rage

Bucky woke up in the morning on the couch just like how he was laying down with Gwen last night as the watched some movie from the 80s about a rich girl in California. When he did wake up he expected to find Gwen in his arms, but she was nowhere to be found. No smells were coming from the kitchen, so she wasn’t cooking anything. Standing up Bucky went to go and look for her, he saw that down the hall that her office door was open and he heard her voice coming from inside that room. As he got closer he heard that she was on the phone and arguing with whoever was on the other line.

“I don’t care if that’s what you are doing... Why couldn’t you have called me sooner about this? You’ve had me worried sick, Steven… Do not blame this on Sam, you are the one that didn’t call… Just come back home soon. It’s not the same without you guys… I’m even thinking about doing a morning run… Alright… Bye… Tell them I say hi… Bye Cap.”

Now standing in the doorway, Bucky leaned against the door frame and looked at Gwen. She had put her phone down and was just staring at it. At some point she had gotten in the shower and changed her clothes. Her hair was wet and up in a bun on top of her head. She now wore a white long sleeve sweat that had the Starbucks logo on it and a pair of jeans. She let out a sigh and turned around in her office chair to face Bucky.

“Morning.”

“You could have woke me up.”

Gwen let a lazy smile come to her face as she watched Bucky walk towards her. He walked around the desk and spun her chair around so she face him again.

“You looked too cute.”

Bucky smiled and kept his hand on the back of the chair. His blue eyes drifted over to the phone that was now lying face down on her desk.

“It was Steve, huh?”

“Yeah. HIm and Sam have been in Serbia and Natasha found them there. They said they should be a few more days, but their fine.”

He just nodded and looked back over at her. She was now looking back at her desk and towards a stack of papers. Her eyes quickly shot up to Bucky then she grabbed the papers off the desk and pushed them into open an drawer.

“Do you trust me?”

“What?”

She asked looking back up at him. This time Bucky wasn’t looking up at her and his hand wasn’t on the chair any longer. He looked at the drawer, knowing full well what was now in there. Gwen stood up right between him and his line vision of the drawer.

“I trust you, Bucky. Why would you ask that?”

“Think of all the times I could have killed you. Right now I believe I’m at six times.”

“Bucky, for the last time that wasn’t you.”

He looked up from the drawer and at her. He knew she was right, but he had a sinking feeling that all of this was too good to be true.

“You say that, but the Winter Soldier is apart who I am.”

“It is not. The Winter Soldier and you are two different people, like me and Lindsay Lohan are two different people.”

Bucky gave her a confused look when she said Lindsay Lohan.

“I’ll show you later. Anyways, I trust you with my life Buck.”

“More likely to end it.”

“Buck. You are NOT the Winter Soldier. You are a good man. If you can’t see that why did you even come to find me?”

He couldn’t answer her, he didn’t know what he could say. Letting out a groan he went to turn around and walk away but Gwen grabbed hold of his arm, pulling him back to her.

“Don’t ever doubt yourself, Barnes.”

Standing up on her tip toes and pulling his arm down, she captured his lips with hers. Bucky respond in less than a second. His hands went to her waist and pulled her closer to him. Gwen’s hands went up from his arm to his shirt, pulling on the brown cotton fabric. Taking a few steps back Bucky had her pinned between his body and her desk.

“I’m breaking so many of my rules.”

“Rules are made to be broken.”

Bucky told her in a husky voice as he pulled away just a few centimeters.

“Bucky.”

He smirked and kissed her again. Now this lust and greed had taken hold of Gwen, she hadn’t felt like this is a long time. The last person was Brock and that’s something she just wanted to forget about now. Her fingers worked their way down to the hem of his shirt and slowly started to pull up on the fabric. Bucky was about to lifted her onto the table but then a loud ringing came from Gwen’s phone. Letting out a small scream Gwen pushed Bucky away and looked down at her phone on the table, seeing it was Ronda she rolled her eyes and let it go to voicemail.

“I’m sorry.”

She said gingerly as she looked at her phone as it rang. Bucky laughed and walked back around the desk, then leaned over the desk and whispered in her ear.

“I’m not.”

“James Buchanan Barnes.”

She said giving him a smile as she walked away from her. Following him out of the office they walked to the kitchen and talked about what they wanted to eat. From the kitchen Gwen couldn’t hear that her phone continued to ring over and over again.

~*~*~*~*~*~

“Let me take you out for dinner.”

“Like a date?”

“Yes. What’s so wrong about that?”

Gwen looked up from her cereal and smiled at him.

“Nothing. I was just seeing if you were sure about it.”

Bucky smirked and took another bite of his bowl of cereal.

“How about 7 o’ clock. We can take a walk afterwards?”

“A walk at night downtown New York. Sounds romantic.”

She said with sarcasm dripping over her words. Bucky shook his head and rolled his eyes at the young girl in front of him.


“You’ll be with the most feared assassin in human history. You’ll be safe.”

Gwen let out a short small laugh. She didn’t like that he labeled himself like that. She did know that it was something that he had to just get over in his own time, not matter how many times she told him it wasn’t true.

“It will be great.”

“Ms. Brewster.”

“Yes, JARVIS?”

“Ms. Oliver has been trying to reach you for the past hour, and hasn’t stopped calling since.”

“Damn you Ron. I’ll be just a minute.”

Gwen told Bucky as she got up and rushed back to her office. Bucky just sat and watched her go. When he heard her back on her phone he turned back to his cereal and started to eat again. After another four minutes Gwen came running back in with her phone in her hands.

“I’m sorry, I have to cancel our date.”

Bucky’s head whipped around to see the sorry and disappointed look on her face as she broke the news to him.

“What? Why?”

“I forgot that it’s Macey’s bachelorette party tonight. Any other night but tonight and tomorrow will work perfectly.”

Bucky sighed and nodded his head.

“It’s fine. When do you have to leave?”

“We’re meeting up at a restaurant at 8. You can walk me there.”

A little smile came to his face as Gwen put in the last part and gave him a smile.

“I’d be honored.”

“Thank you for understanding. And I’m really sorry about this.”

“I’ve got all the time in the world, Gwen. Don’t worry.”

She smiled and walked over to him, giving him a kiss on the cheek.

“I’m not going anywhere, Hoss.”

“You better not, dollface.”

~*~*~*~*~*~

Bucky and Gwen walked side by side and hand in hand down the busy streets of Midtown Manhattan. Gwen had spent the last hour getting ready for going out, nearly all of that time was spent picking out her dress. Walking with Bucky at her side Gwen felt like she was on cloud nine, if anyone looked at them they would know that he was her’s. She felt happy and safe as she walked with him. Bucky was in the middle of telling her joke when they heard her name being yelled from just a bit up the block. Looking past the people in front of her Gwen saw Ronda and Abigail waving like mad women at her.

“‘Come on.”

She said with a smile and pulled Bucky towards her two friends. When they got up to them her friends couldn’t take their eyes off of Bucky.

“Um, Gweny. This is a girl’s night.”

Ronda said as her eyes looked Bucky up and down. Watching the blonde haired girl’s eyes Bucky moved his left hand that held Gwen’s behind his back just a bit, so she couldn’t see his fingers.

“I know. He was just dropping me off.”

Both girls nodded and looked at their friend winked. Rolling her eyes Gwen turned to face Bucky and let out a small giggle.

“Thanks for the walk. I’ll call you when I wanna come home.”

“Have fun.”

“I will. Bye Buck.”

He smiled and gave her a quick peck on the cheek. Gwen’s face turned beet red as she heard her friends make ‘oooh and aww’ noises at them.

“Bye dollface.”

Bucky said with a smile on his face and then let go of Gwen’s hand. Quickly he shoved his hand into his zip hoodie pocket it and started to walk back to Avengers Tower. Gwen watched as Bucky left and then Ronda wrapped her arm around her friend’s shoulders.

“Who in the fuck was that?”

“James. I met him a little bit ago.”

“And you didn’t feel like telling us about him at brunch?!”

Abigail said acting hurt as her and Ronda walked the brunette into the restaurant.

“How come I’ve seen him before?”

Abigail asked as they walked to the table that the rest of the girls were at. Gwen shrugged her shoulders then Ronda piped in.

“He was at the hospital. You bitch, not telling us about him than.”

Gwen was about to say something but they had arrived at the table and Gwen was swallowed by Macey’s arms.

“I’m so happy you made it. We were beginning to worry about you.”

“It’s a little hard to pick a dress that hid my shoulder enough and not look like I was going to your funeral.”

Macey laughed and ushered Gwen to her seat next to her. Ronda and Abigail had already sat down and Gwen looked over at Jennifer across the table.

“Hey Jenny.”

She said standing up hugging her over the table. Just when Gwen sat down for a second time Ronda opened her mouth and told the other two girls about Bucky.

“Our little Gwen was dropped off by a guy.”

“Oh, my God. Who?”

Jennifer asked putting down her drink menu to look at Gwen. When she said nothing Ronda continued.

“He’s name is James and he was at the hospital the other night, and we did get introduced!”

“Hello, earth to Gwen. We are your best friends. We need to know about these things!”

“Well excuse me for not saying anything. I was shot after all. And telling her best friends about a boy is much more important.”

The four girls booed at her and she laughed.

“What about Brock, Gwen? From what you’ve told us, God he sounds like a man I would never leave.”

Ronda said making a growling noise at the end, making everyone laugh. Yeah, Gwen maybe shared a bit too much about her and Brock’s sexaul relasonship with her friends, but that was just how their group worked. Everything and anything were up for dissection 24/ 7.

“I don’t know. I haven’t heard from him in a while. I mean we were never anything serious.”

“I’d make him serious.”

Gwen threw her napkin at Ronda, to which she stuck her tongue out at her friend.

~*~*~*~*~*~

After dinner the girls walked about four blocks away to the bar that was their home base. Carlton’s. It was owned by Jennifer’s brother-in-law, Cedric, and they girls have been going there ever since they came to New York all together. Walking into the bar there was a section made for for the girls in the packed bar. When they got over there they found a bottle of champagne on ice, waiting for them.

Macey picked up the note that was next to it and read it out loud.

“To Macey and the party bitches. I can’t believe that you and Devon are really doing this. You both are fucking crazy to get married, don’t do it! It’s a trap! Anyways, you ladies have a wonderful night and horrible miserable morning. Love, Tony Stark.”

All of the girls laughed at the note.

“This is going in a frame and I’m hanging it in my living room.”

Macey said as she laughed at Tony’s note, then tucked it away in her clutch Picking up the bottle Macey went to open it and looked at her bridal party.

“Well, ladies?”

Gwen smiled and raised her hands in the air.

“Let’s get drinking, bitches!”

Macey laughed and popped open the bottle and took a swig of it then passing it to Gwen. Jennifer grabbed the glasses and passed them out and poured everyone a glass. Gwen cleared her throat and held up her drink and looked around the small circle.

“Girls, we are saying goodbye to our dearest Macey Cora Ann Vonn.”

Macey went to protest what was coming out of Gwen’s mouth and tell her that she wasn’t dying, but Gwen continued on.

“For in a few short months she will become Macey Cora Ann Ericsson. Watching you plan this amazing wedding over the past year has made me count down the days until you and Devon are married, because this is going to be the wedding of the century! The four of us have been friends for the last 10 years of our lives and what a crazy ride it has been. We could all be standing here tonight if it hadn’t been for Macey. We are all here because our level headed control freak Macey has talked us down from so many ledges. Without her Ronda would have moved to Chicago with that business guy, Jenny would have settled down with her college sweetheart and could have like five kids by now, Abbs would have never London to come back to us here in ‘Merica, and I would have been back in LA working with stuck up celebrities and now I’m working with superheros. Some thank you’s are in order, but first I want to say one last thing as the maid of honor, Macey I can not wait to see you and Devon in 10 years and you had two kids and your driving them to soccer practice and having us come to their games. You and Devon deserve the best and the best is yet to come. I’m so proud of you, Macey. To the bride!”

“To the bride!”

With tears in her eyes Macey hugged Gwen. She laughed and took a drink as she was being hugged. When Macey let go she threw her drink back and then let out a whoo.

“Oh shit.”

Gwen said to herself with a smile, knowing that the night was far from over.

~*~*~*~*~*~

Gwen hopped out of the cab and waved at the girls inside.

“I’ll miss you girls! Call me!”

All four of them said something in return but Gwen didn’t hear it or understand what was being yelled at her. She giggled and shut the sliding door of the van and turned to look up the Avengers Tower. Almost losing her balance up looking up she laughed at herself then walked to the front doors of the tower. Opening her clutch purse she found her key card and held it up to the door. The light turned green and the doors opened for her. Stumbling in Gwen tried to walk over to the elevators that were on the other side of the room. After cursing herself and Tony she got to the doors minutes later. When the opened she almost fell in up caught herself on the railing along the edge of the wall.

“Ms. Brewster. Good to have you back ma’am.”

“Take me home JARVIS!”

She ordered and raised her finger in the air like she was some kind of middle ages king in England. What felt like hours, in which were actually less than a minute, Gwen found herself on the 39th floor and stumbling down the hallway. As she walked she dropped her clutch on the floor and pushed the jacket over her shoulders and onto the floor. Opening the first door she same to Gwen found herself in a darken bedroom. Stumbling over to the king size bed in the dark Gwen flopped down on the bed and kicked her shoes off. Laying in the bed in only her dress she stretched out her arms and let out another giggle.

“I’m a snow angel.”

“Gwen?”

Looking over at the door she saw Bucky standing in the doorway in his boxers and a white tshirt. She gave him a devilish smile and waved at him.

“Just the man I was looking for.”

She said seating up and looking at him. Gwen lifted herself off the bed and started to walk towards him, trying to keep a straight line.

“Gwen, you need to get to bed.”

Lifting her pointer finger to his lips she silenced him. Slowly Gwen trailed her finger down from his lips and down his chest.

“Always so bossy. I think you need to take a load off Sergarnet.”

“Gwen-”

But her lips crushed into his and her hands pulled upward on his shirt. Quickly he kissed back and picked her up in his arms, leading her over to his bed. Gwen successfully pulled the shirt from his body and ran her hands up and down his torso.

“Bucky. I need you.”

She said as they kissed. Bucky stopped for a second and pulled his lips away from her’s. Her face was flushed red and her pupils were dilated so much that he could barely see her brown irsules.

“Babydoll, you need to get some sleep.”

“No. Let me do this.”

She said rolling over so she was on top of him. He looked up at her and wanted to go along with whatever she had plan, but he knew he shouldn’t.

“Gwen.”

She groaned and rolled over again so she was laying next to him. After about a minute Bucky looked over at her and saw she was asleep. He chuckled to himself and picked her up. With one arm he held her and with the other he got the bed ready. Laying her down first then getting in next to her. He wrapped his arm around her and kissed her back.

“Goodnight, babydoll.”

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