Loki x Reader - Give Me Love

“Give me Love” – Loki x Reader Chapter 29

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You took a breath when you saw everyone standing there waiting for you... Loki tightened his hold on you,

“Are you ready...?” he asked,

“I should be asking you that...” you replied, leaning a little closer to him as you both entered the meeting room... This was going to be a long day...

***

Thor led Loki to a seat, and intended to take you to another one on the other side of the table, but before he could, Loki pulled you down onto his lap. Both of you received looks from The Avengers, and though they were mainly aimed at Loki, they still hurt...

“Okay. So where do we start?” Loki asked with a smirk, running his lips across your neck.

“Where is the Tesseract?” Tony asked. Loki chuckled with a sigh,

“Back on this old subject are we? Do you ever tire of whining for the same thing?” Thor slammed his hand on the table,

“This is not a time to be playing games.” He growled. Loki eyed him for a moment,

“He came and claimed it several months ago.” The raven haired man laughed softly, “He wasn’t too happy when I told him you had broken the sceptre, Thor.”

“Who?” Tony asked.

“Thanos.” Everyone in the room looked thoroughly confused – except for Thor, who looked very nearly terrified.

“Tell me this is a joke... Tell me you did not give The Tesseract to Him.” Thor almost pleaded.

“Okay, pause, rewind - - who is Thanos?” Tony asked. Thor sighed,

“He is of a race known as the Titan Eternals. He is on a quest to find Infinity Gems... Up until now he has been unsuccessful...”

“Wait... you’ve known this the entire time, and you didn’t tell anyone?” Steve asked.

“He has been attempting to find them for many years… I was not certain that he was the one pulling the strings - - it was merely speculation... and because we did not see him come to claim The Tesseract, I thought I was wrong.”

“Gems... You said Gems. That would mean there’s more than just the cube.” Bruce said more to himself than Thor, but it didn’t stop Thor from answering.

“There are six gems in total… Created several millennia ago at the creation of the universe… They each hold immense power and cannot be held or used by mortal beings…”

“Great… and how many does Thongos have?” Tony asked.

“Thanos.” Thor corrected, causing the billionaire to roll his eyes. “I don’t know…” Tony sighed irritably,

“How many?” he asked Loki,

“I do not know.” He said. More arguing ensued, but you were too out of it to pay any real attention. Your mind was thoroughly blown and spinning at the same time. Six all-powerful ‘gems’ were just floating around space?! What kind of idiot would willingly house one of them on their planet?!

“What does he plan to do once he has them all?”

“I don’t know...” Thor replied.

“What does he plan to do once he has them all?” Tony repeated, only this time he was looking at Loki.

“How would I know?” he growled. Again, more arguments broke out… You sighed softly. It was a vicious circle that just didn’t seem to want to end…

Between all the questions to both Thor and Loki, and giving them enough time to explain, several hours had passed, and you could tell Loki was growing more and more irritated...

“Maybe because you were working for him?” the billionaire replied. Loki rolled his eyes,

“I have answered your questions, now I will return to the medical bay with (Name).”

“You’re nowhere near finished answering our questions.” Nat said. Loki’s jaw clenched; and you could tell he was ready to completely snap.

“Loki...” you said softly while gently running your hand over his chest. His eyes turned to you, burning with fire at first, but the longer he looked into your eyes, the calmer he became. He wrapped an arm around your shoulders and pulled you closer.

“What else?” he growled at The Avengers. Nat nodded at Auden, who pressed play on a remote control. A snippet from the cameras in the prison cells began to play, and to say it was familiar would be a complete understatement. It was you, and Loki. You were sitting beside him on the floor, Loki laying in the familiar, old, rickety bed.

“Just be patient, I will talk them into letting me out of this place.” The Loki on the screen said.

“You don’t have any leverage...”

“I do.”

The television was shut off a moment later.

“So, Loki. What is this leverage?” Nat asked.

“Nothing, I assure you,” he said with a shrug. Suddenly the doors slammed open, and a tall, bald, dark skinned man with an eye patch walked through the doors. Everyone looked confused or uncertain, but that all changed when he walked up to Loki and tore you from Loki’s hold. He held a gun to your head.

“Fury, what are you doing?” Steve asked, stepping forwards to stop him, however unknown men blocked his way and created a wall of bodies to block their path to you.

“Tell me where they are.” The man, Fury, asked Loki.

“Where are what?” he snarled, fire and hatred burning in his eyes.

“The missiles, the nuclear weapons, the chemical warfare research and samples!” He replied, pressing the gun hard to your temple.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” Loki replied smoothly. Fury roughly passed you to one of the other unknown men and removed all but one bullet from a revolver. He spun the barrel and clicked it in, before pointing it right at your head.

“Let’s play a game.” He pulled the trigger, making you jump and sob all at once - - though no bullet came out. “Tell me what I want to know, otherwise she will die.” He said,

“You wouldn’t dare.” Loki snarled. Again Fury shot the gun, and again it didn’t go off... Though that didn’t make the fear in your stomach and tears running down your cheeks stop,

“Please, stop, I-,” The man holding you still covered your mouth.

“Where are they?”

“I don’t know!” Loki growled as he tried to stand; however the guards stopped him. The other Avengers tried to fight their way towards you, but the guards were keeping them in place. Fury pulled the trigger again, and you flinched. More tears spilled from your eyes. You were going to die... You were really going to die... Loki would never tell him what he had planned... and you were going to die because of it... You didn’t even notice the other two trigger pulls, until Fury spoke.

“Last one. This time I know I won’t miss. Tell me. Where are they?” He said in an eerily calm voice. Loki didn’t respond. Fury started to squeeze the trigger, and you tightly closed your eyes.

“Stop, stop, stop!” Loki yelled. “They’re all around the world... with different enemies of SHIELD… They’ve taken them to keep them safe.” He said.

“Names.” Fury growled. “I need names.”

“Ivankov, Belova, Gorman, Forson...”

“Is that all?”

“Yes...” Fury gave the man holding you a signal, and the next thing you knew, you were on your knees, sobbing softly. You’d seen death... You’d touched its icy hand before and come back just fine... but this time... this time it was different... A warm hand settled on your shoulder.

“She has been traumatised enough for one day, don’t you think?” Loki growled before lifting you into his arms.

“Loki, we are not done here.”

“I am. I have told him the only piece of information I had withheld. There is nothing else I can tell you.” He barked before turning around and heading out the doors.

You weren’t sure who it was, but someone was following closely behind Loki. You head nuzzled into his chest and closed your eyes; by the heavy sound of the footsteps it was probably Thor...

“We didn’t do that to her, you did.” Yes, it was definitely Thor.

“You could have stopped him. You allowed him to point the gun at her and shoot without interfering.” Loki growled.

“If you had just told him what he wanted to know, she wouldn’t have been in danger.”

“You could have stopped him!”

“You could have too Loki. Do not put the blame for this on anyone else but yourself.” Thor warned before the sound of a door locking moved through the still air.

Loki walked through the medical bay, and placed you on the bed you shared. Everything except for the bed, a few books and old children’s games had been removed from the large room, and it had been reinforced to keep Loki inside. You looked up to him, water still in your eyes,

“Why...?” you asked in a tiny voice.

“Why what?” he asked.

“Why did it take so long for you to answer him...?” you asked. “You hesitated for so long... if it had been one bullet earlier, I would have died... If it had been the first or second bullet, I would have died.” Loki glanced away and fell silent.

“I was weighing up my options.” He said.

“Weighing your options?” you sounded outraged, and you definitely were. “Is that all I am to you?”

“No,”

“Then there shouldn’t have been options.” You said.

“(Name)-,”

“Do you actually love me...?” Loki’s brows pulled together,

“What? Of cou-,”

“Then why did you hesitate...? Why was my life worth less than the names of-,” He placed his hands on either side of your face and pressed his lips roughly to yours, effectively silencing you. An arm wrapped around your middle and held you tightly to his chest before he broke the kiss.

“I love you... do not ever doubt that...”

“But-,” before you could finish your sentence - - or your train of thought - - Loki leaned forwards to kiss you once more. You wanted to pull away and slap him in his stupid face, but his hold on you was too tight, and the kiss too pleasant.

“I love you.” He said again.

“I…” he kissed your forehead and gently laid your head on his chest. You closed your eyes and wrapped your arms around him. His presence, his warmth… it was all so settling… and yet you hated it. You felt love, betrayal and pain all at once, but the longer he held you, the more the pain and betrayal began to fade, though that only made your irritation and anger rise. How could he do this to you so easily?!

“Shhh…” he hushed softly, rubbing your back. You hadn’t even realised your breathing had began to race, or that you were scowling.

“I can’t keep doing this…” You mumbled softly.

“Doing what?”

“Expecting you to actually care… expecting you to love me.”

“I do love you.”

“Then why would you let me die?!”

“You’re not dead!”

“I would be if the bullet was in one of the other chambers!”

“But you’re not dead!”

“Only because I got lucky!”

“What? What do you want me to do? Say I’m sorry? I’m sorry! Tell you how terrified I was at the thought of actually losing you?! Well I was!”

“You were so terrified that you wanted to keep your plans to yourself?!” You yelled back. He turned away while pinching the bridge of his nose, he was lost in thought, and you just wanted to get out. You stood and moved towards the door.

“You’re leaving?” he asked,

“Yes.”

“You don’t want me?” He growled.

“I just want some time to think Loki!” you said, trying to open the door, but it was still locked… obviously.

“Then leave!” he snarled.

“I’m fucking trying!” you sobbed while turning the handle rapidly, but eventually you gave in and slid down the door to sir on the floor. You covered your eyes and tried to hide the tears running down your cheeks. You hated this feeling. The feeling of absolute helplessness and loneliness… You weren’t alone; Loki was with you… but for how long? How long until he tired of you and threw you away? How long until he was locked away forever and you were unable to communicate with him…? It was all too much…

He shifted in the room. You couldn’t see him, but you could feel his presence in front of you, and his hand settle on your arms.

“(Name), stop crying…” he said softly. He gave you a moment to stop your tears before he pulled your arms away. Water still logged your eyes, and the moment your eyes came to rest on him, they began to fall again. He reached forwards and wiped the tears away, “Please…” he said while slowly pulling you to his chest. You leaned into his warmth and closed your eyes,

“Sometimes I think this could work… but then there are times when we seem to poison each other… We hold to tight, and end up harming the other…” you mumbled softly. He rested his cheek on the top of your head,

“I know…” he lifted you into his arms and carried you back to the bed and laid you on it before joining you, his fingers twirling your hair softly.

“Be glad, if you hadn’t kissed me, I would have slapped you in your stupid face.” You said with a weak smile.

“My stupid face?” he asked with a chuckle.

“Yes.” You replied with a sightly wider smile. He leaned forwards and kissed your forehead,

“I do love you…”

“I know…”

“And you know I do not want you to die…” he said. You nodded,

“I know…”

“Then why do you look so sad…?” he said while gingerly trailing his fingertips over your trembling lower lip.

“I don’t know…”

“Tell me." he said sternly.

“Because I don’t know any person who loves the way you do…” You mumbled. “You’re so damn confusing, and make me feel everything at once… I just… I can’t keep up…” he pecked your lips softly.

“Do you love me?” he asked. Your mouth fell open slightly,

“What?”

“Do you love me?”

“Yes…” he ran a hand over your cheek.

“Well you know what they say about love, don’t you?”

“That it doesn’t make sense…?” you asked, causing him to smile wide.

“Exactly…” he pulled you softly to lie on his chest and he kissed your head, “Very little has made sense in my life (Name)… you included…”

“I don’t make sense?” you asked, glancing up to him.

“No… you are the single most confusing thing in my life… I want you, but I shouldn’t… I have you at the expense of everything I have worked for… but… I do not blame you…”

“But you are angry…?” you asked softly.

“Not at you…” he said quickly. You took a breath and closed your eyes.

“Do you have something else up your sleeve…? Or were the weapons the last trick you had…?” you asked softly.

“It was the only thing I could do from here…” He said. “They have blocked my magic, and I cannot communicate with anyone…”

“They blocked your magic?” you asked.

“Thor has never been skilled with magic, but he has obviously practised a few spells time and time again.” You raised a brow, not entirely understanding him. “A simple spell done perfectly will do more than a complicated and fancy spell done well.” He said.

“So what do you plan to do?”

“I do not know yet…” he mumbled with a sigh.

***

Steve came knocking the next morning, though it didn’t surprise you much that it was Steve… Loki probably wouldn’t have moved if Thor came to get the two of you. He took both of you to the same room as the day before, but this time Fury was already waiting for the two of you. Immediately Loki wrapped an arm around you and pulled you to his side tightly.

“Is there a reason he is here?” the raven-haired god snarled.

“You seem to forget the I am the head of SHIELD…” Fury said. Loki clenched his jaw,

“That doesn’t answer my question.”

“He’s here because he’s the director of SHIELD, Loki. That is all.” Thor cut in. Loki sighed and tightened his hold on you slightly,

“Why are we here?” he asked,

“Because we need to know if and when Asgard is coming.”

“And you think they would have told me when they were planning to come and capture me?” he snorted, “Surely you can’t be that thick.”

“Surely you must realise that we won’t keep you where you are in the hopes of Asgard turning up and taking you away.” Fury snapped.

“You intend to put me back in jail?” Loki asked.

“We have seen no signs of Asgard, they haven’t even tried to contact Thor, so yes. We are going to put you in jail until they turn up. If they turn up.” Tony said. Loki took a moment to think,

“What will happen to (Name)?” he asked.

“That is her decision.” Nat said, meeting your gaze.

“You all hate me…” they opened their mouths, probably an attempt to dispute your statement, but before they could speak, you continued, “I have no idea where my friends are, and I do not know if any of my family members survived-,”

“Wait, yes we do…” Bruce said suddenly. You raised a brow,

“What?”

“Thor gave Bucky names to trace… they were your family and friends, weren’t they?” the scientist said. Your mouth fell open slightly,

“Y-You found them?” you asked. Bruce waved you closer. At first Loki didn’t want to release you, but after a comforting squeeze to his hand, and a quick peck to the lips, he allowed you to step forwards.

Bruce lifted up a bulky looking laptop and flipped it open. The computer screen flashed for a moment before turning on, and the names of your friends and family appeared on the screen. Almost all the names were crossed out, but there were a few that had a question mark beside them.

“See…” you said softly. “They’re either dead or missing…” Bruce sighed,

“I’m sorry… if I had remembered I wouldn’t have brought it up at this time…” you shook your head,

“No, it’s good that I know…” your voice was wavering. You may not have been too close to your family, but you were certainly not a heartless monster. Pain and sadness welled in your chest, and you made your way back over to Loki, who immediately wrapped his arms around you.

“She’s lost more than enough people already…” he said. “Are you going to take more away from her now?”

“You are the only one who has taken things from her-,”

“Until now.” Loki cut Steve off. Nat sighed,

“One more day…” she said, all of The Avengers, and Fury, turned to her - - except for Tony.

“One more day.” The billionaire repeated, much to the dismay of everyone.

“No, you can’t allow you to allow him to continue to poison her mind.” Thor growled, thunder cracking in the distance.

“Thor, calm down.” Tony said. “One more night wont do any more damage to her.”

“She isn’t damaged.” Loki said, his voice low and warning.

“After everything you’ve done to her, how can you say such a thing?” the Asgardian Prince said,

“You’re just upset because you liked what I forced you to do to her.” Loki growled. You clutched his shirt tightly,

“Stop it…” you said softly. He ran a hand through your hair before kissing your temple.

“Calm down big boy…” you heard Tony whisper to Thor as the thunder continued to rumble, and the lightning continued to strike. You heard the heels of Nat’s boots come forward.

“(Name), can I speak with you…?” she asked, “alone.” She added. Once again Loki’s arms tightened around you, but you just managed to pry them away from your body.

“I’ll be fine.” You said. Loki reluctantly released you, and you walked over to Nat.

She pulled two seats to face each other on the other side of the table, she took one and you took the other.

“Look, sweetie… We saw what happened after the meeting yesterday.” Nat said.

“What? How?!” you said loudly, drawing Loki’s gaze to the two of you.

“There’s a camera in the room (Name)… we see how he acts around you, we see how he bends to your will, while also manipulating you to fit his own needs.”

“I…”

“You wont be able to see it… You’re too close to the situation and can’t detach yourself to look at it objectively.”

“And you can? You hate Loki… so how can you be objective?” you asked, “and another thing. How has he manipulated me? I know you may not believe me, but I am not stupid. I know what I’m doing, and I know when he’s being and absolute prick…” you trailed off.

“(Name), we’re just trying to look out for you…” She said, causing you to sigh.

“I know…”

“Then you know why you have to be careful around him… why we can’t trust him…”

“I do…” she hesitated before speaking again,

“We have a proposal for you (Name)…”

“What kind of proposal?”

“We will allow you to continue seeing Loki, if you make periodical reports to us about anything he tells you…”

“I-,”

“Please, (Name). It will allow you to continue seeing him, and for us to gain any information he left out.”

“You want me to spy on Loki?”

“(Name), I would appreciate it if you would sit down and consider what we have to say-,”

“-and I would appreciate it if all of you didn’t sit back watching us!” you growled.

“He is a monster, (Name).” Thor said, stepping into the conversation, earning a glare from Nat.

“No… He isn’t… Not to me…” Thor shook his head and walked away. You sighed and turned back to Loki. He held out a hand to you. You stood and you took it. The more you lingered on it, the more you thought that maybe they were right… Maybe he was their monster - - a wolf - - and they saw you as his sheep… But to you he wasn’t a monster… because a monster isn’t a monster when you love them, and you truly did love Loki…

Thunder cracked high in the sky and the clouds began to turn dark, dragging you out of your thoughts.

“What the hell Thor?” Tony said. “I thought you were fine now.”

“This is not me...” Thor replied, his eyes firmly on the sky.

“What is i-,” before you could finish your sentence, a large, bright cylinder of light stuck the Earth right outside of the meeting room. Loki wrapped a protective arm around you, and shielded your eyes from the harmful rays. A few moments later, Loki’s hand dropped, and the light disappeared. Five figures stepped out, three male warriors and two women, one looked regal and graceful, the other was slightly younger and dressed in armour similar to the men, only more feminine. The French doors opened, and the five people stepped through,

“Loki Laufeyson.” The warrior woman said. “You are under arrest, under the name of Odin, the Allfather.” Her voice was stern and unwavering. Great… just great… What else could go wrong?

Notes

And were almost at the end of the third arc. Next chapter will the the last chapter in this arc, and I will start the fourth almost straight away ^^ Which means, I'm nearly done! Probably 10-12 more chapters, and I will be finished this story! I can see the finish line reader-chans!! :D
Tell me what you think please~ This chapter turned out longer than I thought it would be, so it took an extra day to come out, sorry~