Chapter four – Stop pushing me away!

Midnight New York City was very beautiful. The street lamps were shining, the people were hidden in clubs and partying and some of them were lying in beds, dreaming. Tie view from the tower was indeed spectacular. She would have enjoyed it if she wasn’t silently crying. Her green eyes were locked at the long streets, but her mind was only focusing on one thing – Tony. His words hurt her. The man created a hole in her heart. Why would he ever say something like that to her? After all what happened, after the drama and fights, confessions, Tony said it and he meant every single word. Very slowly, Adeline wiped a tear from under an eye with a finger. She inhaled a cold fresh air and once again, she tried to calm herself down.

Her ears registered footsteps from behind her back. It could have been only one person. What was he doing there? He was mumbling something under his nose, looking for a bottle of alcohol. She heard clinging sounds from the bar. The brunette remained quiet even when new tears fell down her eyes. She hugged her bare legs with hands and put the chin on top of them. She was wearing a black tank top and purple shorts for sleeping. The air was cold, autumn was already in the town, but she couldn’t care less. Her long brown hair was messy, falling down on her back and shoulders.

Tony found a clean glass, poured a drink and hit the bottle. When he wanted to drink the liquid, his eyes found a feminine body, sitting in front of a broken window and he heard her sobbing. His right fist clenched and he shut his eyes for a moment. If only she knew how sorry he was. If only he could take back everything that he said to her earlier. What if he loses her forever? What if he already lost her heart? Is this what he really wanted?

“Adeline?” he said her name softly. “What’s wrong?” he asked, immediately regretting the question.

The woman’s head was suddenly up and she stood up in a second. Her green eyes were full of wrath and disgust. “What?” she gritted her teeth. “How dare you ask me what’s wrong!” she uncontrollably yelled at him. Her steps were fast and she came closer to the man with perfectly fixed beard. Tony saw the tears and red eyes with circles of tiredness. “You suddenly came here and after all that you said, you have the guts to ask me what’s wrong?! Are you fucking kidding me?!”

This was the first time he didn’t know how to properly react. His body was tired because he hasn’t been sleeping since the battle of New York. He was working on his suits and designing the tower, so his mind would think about the bad things that happened. Tony was thinking about that moment the whole day, until now. He regretted his actions, ignoring and avoiding her. He thought it would be the best for her, but he was wrong like never before.

“What’s the matter, Stark? Now you have nothing “nice” to say to me?” she asked him, still frowning and crying. “How could I ever think you felt something for me when you are acting like a douche to me? How could I be so stupid?” Adeline took a deep breath and continued. She wanted to tell him everything – how she felt and what was running through her mind. “I thought you were happy to see me when I came back because I was. Were you pretending it, trying to act cool in front of your colleagues or what they actually are?”

Just when she thought he wouldn’t reply Tony’s eyes dropped on the floor rather looking at it. “I’m sorry,” that was all he said. Adeline froze; the green orbs were locked on his figure. He slowly fell on his knees, heavily breathing and not looking at her. Maybe his actions broke her heart, but this definitely tore her soul apart. Seeing him on his knees, saying sorry with a shame was something she wouldn’t expect. The arc reactor in his chest was shining from underneath his black shirt. When he lifted his head up, there were tears in his eyes. “I am really sorry.”

Adeline held her breath when she sank on her knees too. Her hands rested on top of the thighs and she was directly looking into the gorgeous chocolate eyes. “Then why…” she didn’t have to continue. He understood her.

“I thought,” he slowly started to explain, “that this was a good thing – for you. I wanted to upgrade my suits, create new ones so that I could protect you from harm. Then, I had an idea, which didn’t go well. I thought,” he was repeating words a little, “that ignoring you, avoiding you, would protect you from me because I knew I could be the first one to harm you. And, I did,” he shook his head. “I’ve made bad decisions,” he sniffed. Tony’s eyes were scanning that beautiful face. It hurt him seeing his girl like this because of him. “I haven’t been sleeping ever since the aliens came here. I have nightmares and they wouldn’t let me sleep. That’s why I’m always working. And the lack of sleep caused something that hurt you.”

Adeline hid her mouth from shock. Those words hit her like a train. Tony was being honest. “Why?” her head was shaking. “Why didn’t you tell me at the very beginning? I would have understood! You know I would,” another hot tear fell down and landed on her thigh.

“I don’t deserve you, Adeline. Just look at me. You shouldn’t be with me,” Tony’s eyes were once again on the floor. “Nothing’s been the same since New York. Nothing good…”

“Stop,” her hands landed on his shoulders. “Why? Why are you doing this to me?” she pushed herself closer to him. The right hand lifted Tony’s head, so he was looking into her eyes. “What do you know what’s good for me? Just, stop, Tony. I am a grown up and I can make my own decisions. And for god’s sake, stop pushing me away from you! I fucking love you, Stark!” The brunette tried to hold the tears back, but she couldn’t. “Stop pushing me away,” she whispered. Her soft palms were gently stroking his cheek.

Those three words were everything he needed to hear. His manly arms quickly found her waist and pulled the fragile body closer to his. “I love you too, Adeline,” he whispered, joining his lips with hers, kissing her like he never did before. The kiss was salty from those tears and also warm. It changed into a passionate one making her moan a little. This was what they both needed – to feel each other’s body. After a couple of minutes, when they stopped kissing, Adeline was hidden in his tight embrace. Tony was sitting on the floor, gently stroking her back, while she was sitting on his lap. “I was an idiot,” he said after a while.

“I know,” she whispered, making herself more comfortable in his arms. “Will you stop pushing me away, Tony?”

“I will. And I’m sorry for what I’ve said earlier today. I didn’t mean it. I really didn’t.”

“If we both want this to work, we have, to be honest with each other,” she mumbled. “Every problem, every suffering, heartache – we have to talk about it. It’s not a shame, Tony,” Adeline yawned.

“I know, honey,” he nuzzled his nose into her hair, smelling it and smiling a little. “But now you need some sleep, Adeline. You are tired.”

“No,” she refused. “I can’t.”

“Why not?” he kissed her hair and then rested his chin there. “Tell me, baby.”

“I can’t sleep. I have nightmares with Loki, or what is his name.” Tony was carefully listening. “When I close my eyes, I can see him standing above me with the scepter in his hand, trying to break my shield. When he touched it, I could feel it, like I was bonded with my shield. How is it possible that I knew him while I was unconscious?”

“What if,” Tony started to think out loud, “your ability is growing and you are becoming stronger? What if the shield is not the only thing you can do?”

“What if,” she repeated. “What happened that day, when I, well I don’t want to say died, but when you lost me?” Adeline said it carefully. Those words caused a much tighter embrace. Tony didn’t want to let her go and that was finally a good sign. “I need to know. Even my father was surprised when I told him about Goth’s death.”

“Well,” the man took a deep breath. “When I thought you died, I was full of rage, hate, and revenge. Rhodes tried to stop me, but it was too late. In that moment, I,” he stopped for a moment, causing Adeline to look at him. Her fingers on the left hand carefully touched his cheek and gently stroked it through his facial hair. “I fell into darkness. I wasn’t thinking clearly. When I got to myself, Goth was bleeding and laughing. I wanted to rip his heart out. It was quick, Adeline. I did him the exact same thing what he did to you. He was weak and I used it. I shot a missile at him.”

“He was a thread for the people. Now, he’s gone and that is a good thing,” Adeline said after he finished.

“I was lost, Adeline,” Tony continued. “When I lost you, I lost myself,” he admitted.

“Tony…”

“And then you came back to me. When one agent told me, they found you; I thought you were really dead. I wanted to take your body and bury you properly. I went to S.H.I.E.L.D. and there you were – alive, protected by your own shield. I was so happy, Adeline. You were back. It was like a second chance for me and I screwed it up. I almost lost you again because of my stupidity.”

Adeline sighed. Her eyes were focusing on his face. Tony was looking at her. His sad face almost made her cry once again. “Will you promise me something?”

“Anything.”

Her lips crooked into a soft smile. “Promise me, you’ll tell me everything. Promise me, you will let me work with you, help you. I am here for you. I love you, baby. No more pushing away.”

“I promise,” Tony smiled at her and leaned to her, so their lips were connected again. He needed to kiss her, feel the soft lips on his. There was nothing better than a kiss from this woman. “I love you too,” he whispered when they broke the kiss. “JARVIS?” Tony spoke out loud.

~Yes, sir?~

“Give Adeline permission on everything – the lab, reconstruction plans, my works, and etcetera,” he started to play with her long brown hair. “Oh and save my latest work and end the running programs. I need to be with my girl now.” Those words made Adeline blush.

~As you wish, sir.~

“Aw, am I your girl?” she blinked a few times.

“Always,” Tony kissed her forehead. “Now come,” he started to move and she did the same. Together they slowly stood up from the floor. Tony’s hands were quickly back on Adeline’s waist and he was checking her face. “I think we should go to bed and if we don’t sleep, we can…”

“Cuddle? Talk?” she finished his sentence purposely. “I would love to. Plus, it’s going to be a big change not being alone in your bedroom.”

“JARVIS, open the elevator and turn off the lights in here,” said Tony, while he took Adeline’s hand into his and their fingers intertwined. He slowly dragged her from the living room to the elevator, not letting his eyes off her. She was finally smiling and that made him happy. It ended well – luckily. What would he do, if she really left him?

When the door from the elevator closed, Tony put the fragile body close to his. One hand was resting on her waist while the other was holding her neck. He didn’t try to do any sexual moves. He just wanted to hold her close. His brown eyes were looking into hers when a soft smile appeared on his face. Tony kissed the top of her nose, and then he moved to her forehead. The playboy needed to show her she’s not just for sex. He loved her very much. The lips found the top of her head where they stayed. He was inhaling the scent of her long brown hair. How he missed it.

Together, as a normal couple, they entered the bedroom. Their hands were still holding, but they remained quiet. This moment was very special for them. A second chance was given to both of them to start their relationship and live as the Iron Man and the Guardian. The room was dark. Neither of them turned the lights on. Maybe they would finally get some sleep. Tony slipped into the bed, followed by Adeline. She was on the left side of the bed, while Tony was on the right side. He put the brunette closer to him and hugged her around shoulders. His head rested on top of hers. Adeline’s hand was gently caressing his chest. The only light they had was the blue light from the arc reactor shining from under his black shirt.

“I missed you,” he said unexpectedly.

The brown-haired woman smiled. “I missed you too, Tony.”

“So, this is going to be our life? The Iron Man with the Guardian, lying together in bed, cuddling and waiting for some trouble so we can save the day?” he laughed at it.

“Well, I think we will enjoy it very much. Who knows what is awaiting us out there,” she said calmly, trying to sneak much closer to him like a kitten. The thin index finger was making circles around the arc reactor. “I love this thing you have,” she admitted. “It fascinates me.”

He kissed her hair and laughed. “Well, it holds me alive,” a smirk appeared on his face. “Speaking of being alive, we both had a near death experience.”

“Oh?”

“I don’t want to scare you, but I almost died during the battle of New York.” He knew something was wrong when she was looking into his face. “I can show you a record from that moment. Unfortunately, you have to wait until tomorrow.”

“So, we both experienced a near death situation.”

“Indeed,” Tony giggled.

“Will you show…”

“No. You have to wait until tomorrow,” he gave her another kiss on her forehead.

She took a deep breath and accepted it by nodding. “It’s a good thing you are alive, you know,” she sighed and leaned closer to him. The hand that was resting on his chest was now slowly trailing south, just to find the hem of the shirt. The fingers sneaked under it and slowly caressed his muscular belly. A mischievous smile appeared on her face. “If you had died that day, I wouldn’t be able to touch you.” The fingers were now touching his skin under the belly button, where the hem of his shorts started. “To be with you,” she continued and pushed her body closer to his. A sound like purring came out her throat.

Together, they sank deeper into the bed, both of them lying on one side, facing each other. He was nuzzling his nose against hers. Sometimes he leaned closer so his lips only brushed against those feminine ones. A hand was caressing her cheek and fixing the brown straight hair behind her ear. Adeline took the opportunity and lovingly kissed him. Her tongue gently brushed his lower lip and asked for entrance, which Tony approved. The kisses were feverish and deep. Tony’s hand moved from the woman’s face to her side, slowly hiding under the tank top.
“I need you,” Adeline whispered when she broke the kiss.

Tony took a deep breath. “Are you sure? I don’t want…”

“Please, Tony,” she smiled and touched his face. “Make love to me,” her hips moved towards him.

He gave her another kiss and his hands grabbed the hem of her shirt. When he slowly took it off, she was in front of him half-naked. She wasn’t wearing any bra that meant less work with getting rid of the clothes. The arc reactor was lighting her chest a little. When Adeline took off his shirt, the light became stronger. “I’ve almost forgotten how beautiful you are,” said Tony, leaning to her and peppering kisses on her neck. His tongue mapped her skin, finding her sweet spot. When he heard a moan escaping the lovable lips, he stayed there for a while, sucking and nibbling the spot. He made some love marks, so she would know to whom she belongs to.

“Tony,” Adeline whispered and her hands trailed down his manly back. He was slowly going down on her collarbones, then moving to the breasts where his tongue started to play with the hardened nipples. Her long fingers were in his hair, playing with it. She felt his hands moving down on her shorts and so did his mouth. His lips were kissing her stomach, coming closer to the belly and going even further down. With her help, Tony got rid of her shorts, leaving the woman completely naked.

“So fucking beautiful,” he breathed, licking his lips and spreading her legs.

“Clothes away,” she ordered him, pointing at the piece of fabric he wore. Adeline almost stopped breathing when his palm gently stroked his hardened length through the material. He made a sweet noise which drove her crazy. To tease her a little more, Tony did a little show where he very slowly took off the last pieces of clothing. Adeline bit her lower lip too hard and she felt blood on the tip of the tongue. “You are so hot, Tony.”

The man laid down between her legs. His index finger brushed against her clit and entrance. “And you are so wet,” his words almost disappeared. When he was making circles around the clit, Adeline was bucking her lips to him. Having her mouth widely open, a soft noise came out of her throat. She was enjoying it way too much. Suddenly, she felt something different down there. Her eyes caught the sight of him, slowly licking stripes on her cunt. The woman groaned very loudly and her fingers were once again back in his hair. It was just perfect, but it changed to even better when his dexterous digit entered her.

“Fuck!” she almost screamed.

“You are so tight,” Tony gave one last kiss on her clit and then he looked at her. His second finger joined the first.

“Oh, Tony, please,” she begged. “More!” Unfortunately, he stopped and she whined. Why did he do it? “Tony!” it sounded annoyed.

“Shh,” he stretched his arm to her and put the two fingers that were inside her on the lips. “Leave it up to me, Ad.” A smile appeared on his face when the woman dragged out her tongue and licked his fingers. “Fuck, now that’s hot.”

“Give it to me,” she prompted him.

When his fingers were all cleaned up, Tony kneeled down between her thighs. While stroking himself with his palm and having eyes locked with hers, he asked: “Do we need a condom? Or was it a stupid question?”

“No,” she dryly gulped, “we’re good. Believe me.”

“I always do,” the dark-haired man answered with a chuckle. He grabbed her soft legs, lifted her pelvis and in that moment he buried himself deeply inside Adeline. “Oh my fucking god!” Tony shouted with a wide smile on his face. He put his palms on her hips and started to move, slowly speeding up. “Fuck, baby, you feel so good around me,” he tilted his head and closed those brown eyes.

“Tony,” Adeline roughly bit her lower lip. “Harder, please.” And he obeyed. The thrusts were faster and harsher, but not for long. He took her by her torso and pushed her forward, making her sit. His cock was still deeply buried inside her. Hands were on her waist, his eyes gazing into hers. Just when she sweetly kissed Tony’s lips, the man was suddenly down, lying on his back and looking at the woman with a surprise in his eyes. Her hips made very slow but delicate moves. She knew what she was doing and Tony did enjoy it very much. When she leaned closer to him, Tony’s hands were on her breasts playing with them.

“Ah, baby, where did you learn that?” he opened his mouth and gasped when she started to move faster. His fingers clenched into her flesh on the hips and started to move under her. Slamming his cock harder, Adeline held her breath for a moment and closed her eyes. She was so close. And Tony helped her with his long digits. His middle finger made few flicks on her clit and the woman was a moaning mess. Her walls tightened around his shaft. The orgasm hit her really hard. Only a mewling sound escaped her throat. Tony helped her ride her orgasm and his one was building very fast.

They never stopped moving. “Come on, Tony,” Adeline spoke when she came down from the high; the grin never left her lips. “Cum for me, baby.” Her hands found his and their fingers entwined together. He squeezed them hard, as his load completely filled her. Tony was panting, his chest markedly heaving and his eyes were closed.

He licked his lips. “Fuck, this was fast but so fucking good,” he laughed a little. Adeline fell down next to him and giggled. “The thing you did with your hips,” he bit his fist and turned to her. “Where did you learn that?” Before she could reply, Tony sucked on of her nipples into his mouth and tips of his fingers were gently caressing her stomach.

“I am full of surprises,” she smiled; her eyes were checking his moves.

“Then you should definitely teach me something new,” he said after his mouth stopped playing with the nipple. Tony, grudgingly, left the woman alone in the bed and quickly ran into the bathroom. Suddenly, the whole bedroom was illuminated with a pleasant light. When he came back, there was a small towel in his hand. Adeline’s eyes were scanning that beautiful naked body. She had to bit her lower lip. He was sexy as hell. “You like what you see?” he asked with a playful smirk.

“I’ve seen you before, Stark,” she answered and he sat next to her body lying on the bed. “But when I see you like this, wow. I’m amazed,” her hand reached his chest and gently stroked his pectorals. Before she could even notice, Tony gently put the towel between her legs and started to clean her up. “Mhm, so careful.”

“Hey, I’ve got a good question,” he cleared his throat. Tony threw the towel away when she was perfectly cleaned and hovered above her. “Why didn’t we use a condom? And let me finish – at all? We slept together before and we never had one. You know, safe sex is important. And by safe, I mean no kids.” He brushed her hair with fingers and waited for an answer.

“Now you want to talk about condoms?” she laughed and he strictly nodded. “Okay, well, you don’t have to worry, because I have an IUD – it’s better than to be on pills or use condoms. However, back in the day, I used to have a lot of one-night stands – spoiler alert, you were the same, Stark – and there was no way having sex without a condom.” She stopped for a moment and thought about a thing. “Well, the funny thing is, you were the first guy without a protection. Wow, we are living dangerously,” she laughed a little.

“Maybe you knew back then we will be together,” he winked at her and she quickly smacked him.

“Tony, this is the weirdest talk after a very good sex I’ve ever had,” Adeline sighed, snuggling closer to his warm, naked body. “Why don’t we talk about something else? How about…”

“I love you, Adeline,” Tony said unexpectedly. He pulled her body closer to his and one arm was hugging her around her torso. “I really mean it. I want you to remember that. I didn’t say it earlier just because you said it first. My heart is yours,” he leaned his forehead against hers.

The brunette smiled and quickly gave him a peck on the lips. “I love you too, Iron Man.”

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