Loki x Reader - Give Me Love

“Give me Love” – Loki x Reader Chapter 25

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After so many near sleepless nights, Loki finally found himself able to relax and the nagging need for sleep wash over his body. Maybe now he could sleep without dreams of (Name) in pain, or disappearing from him mid-sentence – just as she had in real life – or doubting her own power and strength... Yes... To dream of her without such worries would be a welcome change...

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You breathed in deeply; the air was sweet and carried the scent of the forest. Your eyes opened. Yes. You loved this place - - though the scent alone was enough to tell you where you were. You didn’t actually know the place, but your mind had dreamt up a secluded, flowering field deep in a warm, and sun drenched valley. Streams and forests lay to either side of the field, but you never ventured too far into them... It took a while for your dreams to become this way, but just as you yourself adjusted to life within the compound, your dreams changed as well. It allowed you a more peaceful sleep while also giving your mind time with Loki - - even if he was only a part of the dream as well... The Loki you dreamt of was warm, comforting and absolutely dazzling... You felt his arms wrap tightly around your body, separating your back from the plush softness of the grass. He pulled you up and tightly to his chest, taking the chance to breathe in your scent.

“Loki.” You giggled as he began kissing down your neck. This was the Loki you had only seen glimpses of before... You shifted as he pulled you onto his lap and wrapped your arms around his neck.

“I did not want to disturb you...”

“I’m glad you did.” You kissed his cheek and nuzzled into his neck. It took so many nights for you to settle in to the dreams with your imaginary Loki, but now that you had you didn’t want to let him go.

“You are truly a dream to behold...” He said with a smile. You giggled softly.

“Is that some kind of bad pun?” His brows furrowed.

“What do you mean?”

“Well... you called me a dream... but you are literally the dream. I’m dreaming of you...” your gaze shifted to Loki.

“You’re asleep?” Your brows furrowed.

“Of course... Aren’t I...?”

“(Name)...” he chuckled while shaking his head. “I will see you tomorrow night.” Your raised an eyebrow.

“I know... I’ve dreamed of you every night since I left...” you said with a small smile. He leaned forward and pressed his lips to your temple.

“And I have dreamed of you as well...” he said before your dream was interrupted by the sharp knock of someone at your door.

Your eyes opened just as Nat stepped in the door.

“C’mon Sweetie, it’s passed lunchtime, I’ve been waiting for hours.” You groaned softly and sat up. Last night someone suggested staying up for a movie festival - - though they were all old movies it was still nice, until the power nearly went out that is...

“I thought you had to go somewhere today...”

“Steve went instead.” She replied, giving you a knowing gaze. Ever since she offered you her help, the two of you would sneak off whenever possible to make plans. However, your plans always seemed to be thwarted by the unknowing Thor... Nearly two weeks had passed since you arrived at the compound, and the Asgardian still hadn’t left! He had been scheduled to leave four times already, but something always stopped him last minute... It was almost like the universe itself was against you. You sat up and stretched before standing and walking over towards the small cabinet of clothes you had. You quickly changed and brushed your hair, but before you could follow after Nat, something in the corner of your eye caught your attention. Well, not something, someone. It was you... But at the same time it wasn’t... You stared into the cracked mirror in the bathroom. You initially thought being in the compound would result in diminishing your stature even more, but surprisingly enough, you’d actually managed to put a little weight on – mainly around your arms and legs of course – but the nutritious food they had worked wonders on your body. It didn’t taste all that good, but apparently Doctor Banner developed a way to alter the food everyone ate; and while some chose to eat the unaltered version of the food, you and all The Avengers chose not to. Around four days into your stay, a large hoard of food arrived from one of the more developed compounds, and everyone was eating like kings. You ran your hands up your sides which had changed into slightly more feminine curves. “Yes, yes, you look beautiful, now let’s go.” Nat said from the doorway. You smirked and rolled your eyes,

“Not everyone can look like Scarlett Johansson you know.” Nat laughed and shook her head.

“It’s bad enough Clint says it, but now he’s convinced you as well...” she said with a hefty sigh.

“You do look like her though!”

“No, she looks like me.” Nat corrected with crossed arms. You raised your hands,

“Whatever you say, Samantha...” you said with a smirk.

“I do not sound like her!” you giggled and hurried your pace down the hall, fearing Nat would lash out and unintentionally hit you - - you’d seen it happen on more than one occasion to Thor, Clint, and even Steve.

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The meeting had lasted just over two hours – granted some of that time was spent eating and talking about mindless subjects; it was a nice change actually. One of the server girls took a your empty plate away and Nat’s coffee, replacing both with glasses of water. The small coffee shop on the edge of the city became your ‘base of operations’ with Nat and the few others she trusted to complete the mission – John, a guard at the gate, and Savannah, a truck driver for supplies.

“Okay, see ya.” Savannah said before flashing her gorgeous smile.

“Bye.” You said while Nat waved at the woman. You took a deep breath and sighed silently. Tonight... Thor was leaving tonight, and this time it was really happening... It was really happening... You closed your eyes tight. It was really happening...

“If you’re having second thoughts, we can postpone it...” Nat leaned on the wobbly table before taking a sip of water. You shook your head.

“No, I’m fine... I just...” You trailed off. You just... what?

“Thor likes you, you know.” Nat said; a slightly out-of-the-blue statement really.

“What?”

“Don’t act dumb,” Your brows furrowed.

“Are you a ninja who spies on everyone? Or do you just know everything?”

“A little from column A, a little from column B.” she replied with a grin. You smile faltered and you looked away, causing an awkwardly silent veil fell over the two of you. Was she right? Nat was almost always right... “No one would blame you if you want to stay (Name)...” You glanced around the shop. Families, friends and complete strangers sat at tables conversing happily... They were content in their lives - - it was far from perfect, but they were safe... they were together... That was how they needed to stay...

“Nat... I have to...”

“You don’t have to do anything... You only need to do what you want.” Nat paused for a moment. “What do you want?”

“Loki...” No, that wasn’t right... You wanted the Loki you dreamed of... The one who was calm, the one who listened to you... Yes, he was still irritable and jealous at times, but not to the same extent... But you had fallen for the real Loki; the one who held onto you tightly, even though it hurt you sometimes... Nat nodded.

“Then we will go through with it, do you want to run through it all once more?” You sighed softly,

“Thor will leave, I will sneak out and meet John, he’ll take me to Savannah and we will meet you in Idaho. Savannah will go as far as Chicago, and then you’ll use your ninja skills to get us into New York... Is that all...?”

“Yes.” You glanced out to the street. Slowly but surely more people were starting to walk around, work and school had finished; even after two weeks there were still people who didn’t trust you, and being around a large group of people who hated you always made you feel uncomfortable - - even when Nat was with you...

“I’m going to head back now.”

“Okay.” The red head said. “(Name).” she called just before you turned around. “Falling is easy. Waking up when you hit the ground isn’t, and the moment you feel uncomfortable; I want you to use this.” She held out a small device that looked like a remote control for a garage door. “Press it, and we’ll come and get you, okay?” you nodded and fiddled with it for a moment.

“Okay...” You smiled at Nat before shoving the small device in your pocket and turning to leave. Something in the pit of your stomach told you she was nervous and hesitant to give you the device... No, that’s ridiculous... Nat didn’t get nervous. She was just worried about sending you back to Loki; but she didn’t need to be. He wouldn’t hurt you... Would he?

The entire walk back to the house you lingered on your growing fears and hesitations. Loki would still want you... wouldn’t he? Or would he have already moved on? Or would he hate you for leaving? The Loki in your dreams was sweet, calm and understanding... but you hadn’t had a chance to speak to the real Loki at all... he would more than likely still be mad... It wasn’t just Loki’s wrath that had you on edge... Your thoughts turned to Thor. What would he think when Nat told him you had returned to Loki? Would he be hurt? Would he come after you again? You clenched your chest and bit the inside of your lips. Why did your chest ache? You loved Loki, you shouldn’t have such reservations and worries about returning to him... Was it because you loved Thor as well...? You stopped dead in your tracks. No. He was kind to you, he was warm, he helped you... but you were friends... That was all...

You quickly entered the house and unintentionally slammed the door shut. You just wanted to get to your room... The sun was heading for the horizon, and you were still tired – though that was ridiculous since you had only been awake for a few hours...

“(Name)...” Thor called. Of course he did! The universe was against you, so of course when you wanted to be alone it wouldn’t allow you to be...

“Yeah?” you asked, trying to force a smile on your face.

“Come with me, I want to show you something...” You quickly trotted up the stair case and followed Thor through the halls.

He led you through the large second story and into the dining hall. The cooks were preparing dinner for the masses in the compound - - something that happened thrice a week. The deep meaty scent reached your nose and made your mouth water. Why were you so hungry?! You just ate! Thor gestured for you to enter the balcony just off of the dining hall. Usually it was closed off because the balcony was rickety, but... Wow... It faced west towards the long distant water and setting sun and was high enough to see over the forests and grassy fields all around the compound.

“Will you be alright while I am away?”

“Of course.” You said with a chuckle. “Nat will keep me company, and I’m sure once Steve comes back he’ll entertain me as well.”

“And what if they try something again?” You looked down. Just over a week after you had arrived, there were major protests in front of the main house to have you thrown out of the compound. People were scared, people were suspicious, they didn’t trust you... But Thor, Nat and Steve all stood up for you and told the protesters that the three of them would leave as well if the mob had their way and evicted you from the city.

“I’m sure they won’t try anything...”

“But if they do?”

“Then I’m sure Nat will make them all go away.”

“But-,”

“Thor.” You cut him off and placed your hands on his cheeks. “I will be fine.” Were you saying that to comfort him, or yourself?

“(Name)...” Thor said, causing your hands to slip from his cheeks. The Asgardian chuckled nervously. “Making sure you will be okay while I am away was not my only reason for bringing you here... Ever since Loki killed…” he couldn’t finish his sentence, and it pained you to see him in such a state. You stepped forward and gently placed your hand on his muscular shoulder.

“You don’t need to say it...”

“Yes... Yes I do.” The blonde took a deep breath and tried again. “Ever since Loki killed Jane, I found myself incapable of protecting people; all I wanted was revenge for what happened to her... that is how I wound up being captured… I was consumed by my hatred...” his stunning blue eyes turned to you, “but when I saw what was happening to the girls Loki kidnapped, I found myself wanting to protect people again… I wanted to protect you.” Your eyes widened slightly. Was what you were thinking correct? Or had you taken his simple statement the wrong way? Thor stood straight and turned towards you. Suddenly it became all too hard to breathe…

“Thor, I- -,” You were cut off when Thor’s lips crashed against your own. One of his hands moved to your neck, stopping your ability to break the kiss, as the other settled on your hip.

It was… odd… Thor was extremely attractive, and any girl in their right mind would faint from the adrenaline rush. Your heart was beating rapidly and you could feel your skin tingling, but… it just felt so foreign… Yet, it - - Your mind faltered. You didn’t know how you felt. It was like you were being torn in two. Thor had been nothing but kind to you, and since the beginning he showed his genuine concern for you and everyone else. Loki... well... Loki was the complete opposite, but as time passed and you had the chance to spend more time with him, you had come to care for him... Thor’s tongue gingerly traced over your lower lip, bringing your mind back to reality. The God of Thunder pulled you tighter against his chest, allowing you to wrap your arms around his neck. The longer the kiss lasted, the more your heart became conflicted. Too many emotions ran through you at once, you honestly thought you were going to explode.

When Thor finally allowed you to part, you were both left breathless. The blonde didn’t allow you to pull away too far; if you moved forward even an inch, your lips would have met with his again.

“The first time I saw you, I could see your strength. Other girls had been through the hallway and had stumbled upon the prison cells, but every single one of them had lost themselves in the torture Loki had inflicted to them... You hadn’t... You were, and still are strong... And when that vile man attacked you; I felt like myself again, I felt a need to protect you, because at that time you couldn’t protect yourself. I asked Barnes and Johnathan to watch over you as best they could...” your eyes widened. He... He what? Suddenly guilt and sadness flooded Thor’s features. “It was my haste that brought Loki’s wrath onto Barnes... Had I not pushed them to watch over you, that man would have never caught on, and they would both be alive...” A pang of sadness hit your chest.

“That’s not true...” your hands slipped down from his neck to gently grasp his hands. “The Teacher had a suspicion about what Bucky’s true intentions were, when he stopped to talk to me in the cell, he overheard what Bucky had said... It wasn’t your fault, and, well... I think Loki was starting to get irritated with him of his own accord...” There was still no change in the emotions within Thor’s eyes. You wrapped your arms around his broad chest tightly. “It’s not your fault...” you murmured softly as his arms slowly engulfed you in their warmth.

You didn’t want to lead him on, you truly didn’t... but you had to know what you wanted before you had the ability to lead someone on; and your mind was just in such a mess that you couldn’t make any sense of your emotions... You tightly shut your eyes and just tried to focus on reality, but there was still the little voice in the back of your mind asking you over and over again: ‘What do you want?’

“I love you (Name)...” every muscle in your body tensed and you couldn’t breathe, regardless of how much air you tried to take in. “Loki has claimed to love you... but what he showed you isn’t love. It is his selfish need for companionship and affection...” Thor placed a hand on the side of your neck and pulled away. “I love you (Name)...”

“Th-Thor... I...” Your stomach was doing flips, and you could have sworn you were going to be sick. Without thinking you began stepping back, before you were far enough away to quickly dart away from the balcony. You heard Thor trying to call for you, but you couldn’t handle it. You had to get out... You had to get away... You... You... No, you couldn’t do it... You couldn’t think about it. You couldn’t think about the fact that you had betrayed Loki... You wrapped your arms around your middle and quickened your pace. You just wanted to be alone...

You hadn’t even realised you were in your room until the cool touch of the bathroom tiles flooded through your feet. You walked up to the sink and splashed cold water on your heated face before glancing into the polished, cracked mirror. If anyone looked at you, they wouldn’t be able to see the tears gathering in your eyes, but they would certainly be able to see the redness... You ran a finger across the mirror. How could he do this to you? After everything that happened between the two of you, how could you still hurt so much when you think of hurting him?! Without thinking your hand slammed forward into the mirror. You cursed aloud and quickly ripped your hand back. Shards of the mirror fell into the sink, and blood began seeping from your skin. Quickly you retrieved a small, fluffy handtowel from the cavity behind the mirror and picked the shards from your hand. You whimpered as you pressed the towel against your now sensitive hand. The training sessions had strengthened your muscles, but certainly not your skin... and they had taught you to deal with pain, but not this kind of pain.

You pulled the towel away as the bleeding slowed. When you saw the large red mark against the white towel, your stomach flipped. How many weeks had it been...? Two, three... four... At least four weeks, if not more, since that night with Loki in the cells... How long had you been asleep for before he healed you...? A week? Maybe more? So maybe it was five weeks... Your chest began heaving. What if you were pregnant...? After all the rushing around your fears of pregnancy had been pushed aside, replaced with pining for Loki... but... Oh God... You felt your hands shaking and legs threatening to fall from under you. You had to get to Nat... She probably wouldn’t know what to do, but you had to tell someone... You dropped the towel and quickly jogged out of your room, heading straight for Nat’s bedroom. Your head started spinning a little, but you pushed through it. Thank God her room was just down the hall... You knocked rapidly on her door,

“Nat...” you said while opening the door. Your mouth fell open when your eyes fell upon a rather surprising sight.

Nat was straddling the lap of... someone - - certainly not Clint - - atop the bed, and they were both shirtless...

“I... uh... Sorry...” you squeaked before turning to shut the door.

“No, sweetie, it’s okay.” Nat said while standing. When she caught sight of your bloodied shirt she grabbed your arm. “What’s wrong.”

“It-It’s nothing. I cut my hand on the mirror...” she examined your hand and gently prodded the small cuts and examined your hand.

“You should wash and wrap it...”

“Later... can I speak with you?”

“Sure.” She said, leading you into her room.

The bedrooms in the house must have all been similar, because Nat’s room almost looked like a mirror copy of your room...

“You know Bruce, don’t you?” Nat asked while gesturing to the brown haired man on her bed. You opened your mouth,

“Uh... No actually...” you said with a smile.

“I’ve been busy; I haven’t really seen much of anyone.” Bruce stood up and reached a hand forward. “It’s nice to meet you...” you shook his hand,

“It’s nice to meet you too Doctor Banner.” You turned back to Nat. “You two are... busy... I’ll come back later.”

“I already told you, it’s okay (Name), I don’t mind, and neither does Bruce...”

“I...” you cleared your throat. Suddenly it felt all too difficult to speak... Your gaze met with Nat’s, silently pleading for privacy.

“Come with me, I’ll clean your wound while we talk.” She said while leading you towards a small glass table with chairs surrounding it. You sat down and Nat retrieved a small box of medical supplies from her bathroom. “So is there a reason you punched your mirror?” Your eyes widened.

“You do know everything... don’t you?” Natasha chuckled and began wiping the cuts. You glanced over your shoulder, still very aware of Bruce on the other side of the room. “I thought you were with Clint...” You whispered softly. Nat laughed,

“No way. He’s got his own thing going on.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, trust me, there’s only one woman he’d answer to, and that’s definitely not me.”

“Why isn’t she here?”

“She’s safe where she is. There wasn’t a need to move her.”

“Huh...” you said. Hearing that Clint had a girlfriend was weird... you almost shipped him with Nat... Knowing they were nothing more than friends was almost disappointing...

“Stop dodging the question (Name). Why’d you hit the mirror?” she said while beginning to dress the wound, bringing your mind back to the matter at hand.

“I-um...” you took a deep breath. “I think I might be...”

“(Name)...” you could hear the uncertainty and worry in her voice.

“I was confused, and hit the mirror because I couldn’t really make sense of anything... but I... After looking at the blood, it reminded me... and I... I think I might be pregnant.” Just saying the words felt foreign to you. Not once had you ever had to worry about pregnancy... Nat took a moment to think about what you said,

“Would it be Loki’s?” Your brows furrowed. That seemed almost insulting. Did she think you were sleeping around with people?

“Yes.”

“How many weeks?”

“At most four, if not five... at least, maybe two...” You took a deep breath. “I might be wrong; I mean they had us on this birth control... Loki removed mine, but it could take a little while before everything washed out of my body... right?” you stumbled your way through your thoughts until you ran out of breath. “Nat, I... Do you have a test? Or do know where I could get one? I just... I need to know...”

“I’m sorry... I don’t think it would be the first thing on anyone’s list when leaving their houses...” You nodded.

“I know...” You buried your head in your hands. Bruce cleared his throat and pulled both of your attentions towards him.

“If you’re worried, I’d be able to make one for you... I can’t guarantee the accuracy, but it’d be better than nothing.” You took a deep breath. While you usually didn’t appreciate eavesdropping, you could more than forgive it in this situation.

“Thank you, Bruce; that would be amazing...” you said with a smile.

“We’ll postpone everything till tomorrow night...” Nat said as she led you to the door. Quickly your gaze moved to Bruce. She had said that far too loud, he would have heard! “Bruce is the one who made you the panic button (Name).” Your worry quickly subsided and your hand skimmed over the clicker in your pocket.

“Thank you... both of you...”

***

After the initial offer, Bruce came up with the idea of doing a blood test, but you didn’t want that... You didn’t want The Avengers - - or anyone else - - to ask why you were in the lab with Bruce. You didn’t want anyone else to know that you could be pregnant... No one except for Nat and Bruce could know... When the scientist finally arrived at your door, four hours later, you hugged him tightly and thanked him over and over again – and made sure to promise him you wouldn’t bother him and Nat again – before turning back into your room and entering your bathroom.

The test looked a little more mechanical than what you had expected, but apparently it worked just like any other pregnancy test... You replaced the cap on the test and watched as the small timer one the screen counted down. Three minutes... Three minutes... You placed the test on the sink and watched it intently, nervously waiting for the coloured line to appear.

“Come on...” you said anxiously. You couldn’t stand still, constantly shifting your weight from one foot to another. “Please, please, please.” Your head began to spin from the overwhelming nerves swirling in your stomach. You leaned on the cool basin and watched the small timer count down. Someone placed a warm hand on your shoulder.

“(Name)...” you head snapped up and your eyes widened as you turned to face the source of the smooth, sultry voice.

“Loki...”

Notes

Lol. And you thought my other cliff hangers were bad. Even I feel bad for ending it this way...
Sorry if nothing makes any sense... I've only gone through and edited once, and it probably needs another read-through... but... eh... I don't think it would be posted this week if I had to do that, so it isn't really as perfect as I want it to be, but to tide all my reader-chans over, it will do. (I will be finishing "Unadulterated Smut with Uncle Loki" by the end of this week *fingers crossed* and I will be continuing a new Loki story - "Unrequited")

I've been thinking/fearing this for a little while, but now I'm starting to worry... Is reader-chan becoming a Mary-Sue? I'm always afraid of Mary-sues in my writing, and I'm genuinely afraid of it happening in this story... DX
Um... other than that. SURPRISE!!!! Loki and Reader-chan's dreams were indeed connected~ You have no idea how hard it was keeping a lid on that. Literally any time someone asked me "Are their dreams connected?!" I wanted to yell "YESSSSS" But I couldn't... And what do you think? Is reader-chan pregnant? How will she react to Loki? How would someone react to Loki arriving at the compound? Will reader-chan get over her nerves??? Tell me what you think will happen and whether you liked it!!!!!! :DDDD