The silver's tears

"Heimdall I know you can hear me please tell me how this happened? What is wrong with Loki? No, what is wrong with me I never was this weak and fragile, this is not me I faced this before and I was strong enough to fight for saving him" Thor said covering his face with his hands
"You are afraid to fail in saving him just like the last time" a voice inside him answered, voice remembered him of Loki, it was calm and soft though it seems hiding a lot of pain and sadness
"Lo...Loki, is that you"
"no, I'm just a memory, lost one in fact ,your mind find a way to guide me to you" a gaze of green light gathered forming a shape ,loki ,he looks so beautiful so innocent as thor always remembered him smiling but sadness in his green eyes ,he moved closer to thor
"A flash of light in my darkness, a hope to be saved, for Loki to be saved"
Thor couldn't move or react, just sit watching his brother remembering how he was how he messed this face, this smile, just say nothing staring with tears gathering in his eyes
"all what you said there, most of the feelings , the thoughts ,it wasn't yours most of them ,they are mine I was trying to open your eyes to the truth ,to see how loki suffered ,how he felt ,all of these are just a small part of how he really feels ,after all I'm just one memory "smiling to thor again putting his hand on thor's hair and looking at his eyes
Thor couldn't feel the touch at all but there was some cold, Loki's cold he moved to touch Loki's face but it started to disappear like a small gaze of light he heard a whisper "forgive me brother" then he was alone again
"No you forgive me loki for not understanding you, for letting you down all these years, please forgive me so I can forgive myself"
Thor said very quiet but for him it was like one last prayer for forgiveness, for finding peace, he didn't even recognize the tears falling from his eyes, this time it was really him who cried
When Thor walked into the main room everyone stopped talking apparently it was some sort of fight he managed to hear his brother name said several times
"Am I interrupting something here, I can come back later"
"No, no thor come in it is nothing "Steve said smiling at him
"I want to tell you something, I don't know if you will understand it or not, I'm confused by it myself" his voice was shaking and he looked lost but not in the weak way no as he was thinking of something
"Say it buddy don't worry things become a lot weirder these days "tony said he looked serious not funny tony but tony the real one
Thor stared at him for a second then sighed preparing himself for what he is about to say
"What happened from me these two days it wasn't me?"
Steve interrupted him saying "no one is going to judge you Thor we are your friends"
"No you don't understand, it really wasn't me it was Loki"
"Excuse me, what?! Loki is in almost coma I assure that "banner said looking astonished
"Did he control your mind?" Clint asked quickly
"noo ,it was a memory, look my brother's magic isn't obtained or taught he is born with it everything about him won't make sense I know it was a lost memory ,loki's memory, somehow it came to me and controlled me not in the way you think it just put some of loki's thoughts and feelings in my mind "
“So Loki was the one who cracked not you, but why would he do something like that, to expose himself to all of us "banner said
"The memory was a lost part of Loki actually it was the real Loki he was just trying to open my eyes to see how much Loki suffered"
"And how we don't know it is just a trick his mind playing it on you "clint said
"I saw him...it ...do you think I wouldn't recognize my own brother when he say the truth or playing a trick it is hard with loki but it was him before all this happened he looked like how I always remember him " thor yelled in anger
"Sorry but he looked? You say it was a memory so how you saw it exactly?" tony said feeling confused more confused
"When I went to my room it appeared to me, Loki's magic is controlling his mind now I think it is trying to save him and in the same time sending messages revealing his thoughts"
"How it looked like?" banner asked in curiosity
"like I always remember him calm, smiling at me ,he talked to me his voice was normal not full of hatred or shouting ,his eyes though was full of pain and sadness a deep one he asked me to forgive him before he disappeared "thor was calm he was smiling a little as he remembered his brother
"I don't buy that sorry" Clint said
Thor smiled looking to something behind them "I think you will very soon his magic is strong now as he is healing you will see them a lot they are harmless they disappear if touch them "thor smiled again pointing at something behind them "I suggest you look behind you now"
"Holy shit" tony shouted
"Is this another memory?" Steve asked staring at it
"Many of them are just copies wondering around when you see a memory you will know by yourself these copies are only doing regular Loki hobbies"
"What? Killing, destroying?" Clint smirked
"No" thor voice was cold and serious "reading, studying, drawing, things like that" he smiled moving closer to the copy to watch it
Loki was sitting his legs crossed over each other he was reading like always, he looked peaceful and concentrated
"I really never understood why he love reading so much like that all the time "Thor said in low voice but they heard him
"Because you are an oaf" Loki said smiling to Thor then disappeared
"It talked or am I hallucinating?" tony asked his eyes were wide opened
Thor laughed at his look then said "it is a copy not just an image and it respond only to me"
Then he left to check on his brother and banner went with him leaving the rest staring in the space
"Oh god I think I'm going to lose my mind" tony said making himself another drink a strong one this time
"I think I need a drink too" Steve said following tony
"Me too" said Clint and Natasha in the same time

Notes

guys! you like it or not? i really need to know ! So, some motivation here please :)