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Great Expectations (Loki Story)

Chapter 3 Growing up

'You know its quite funny really, when ever I get in a relationship I am liked and left for the same reason. Men like me because I am a comedian and am funny, but then leave me because everything is a joke to me. Like really baby? You didnt see that coming?'

Loki walked with Bella down the street. Window shopping is what she called it. Looking into stores and admire the items you see, with no actual intention of buying anything. Loki found this activity parculiure but relaxing none the less. It was strange that he had found many things when done with Bella to be relaxing. She made him smile, genuinly. Whick was rare on his part. When on Asgard he had many people who called themselves his friends, but in the back of his mind Loki knew that none of them where really there for him. Now there was Isabella, his one true friend, and she didnt even know his name. Loki worried that one day she would find out who he was, and on that day she would hate him. He would never see her smile, never make him laugh, and never forgive him. Loki would be left to wonder alone once more, a thought that never quite bothered him until now. These past few weeks have melted away the way the idea of being alone. Loki glanced at her face, watching the sunshine make her skin glow, her blonde hair lay on her shoulders, and it was if everything was in slow motion. Bella turned her head and looked back at him and smiled. Her mouth moved but he wouldnt make the words. Loki? Loki?

"Leon?! Hellooo?!" Bella waved her hand in front of his face trying to gain back his attention. Leon shook his head. "Hum, sorry, I got lost in my own thoughts." Bella smirked.
"I can see that. Anything you would like to share with the rest of the class?" Leon shook his head.
"No, it was nothing." Bella gave a small nod.
"Well we are just about home."
Loki took in his surroundings, not realizing they had got home so fast. Bella and Loki made their way up the apartment. Bella droped her keys off on the tabe and walked over to her home phone. 3 New messages. Bella yawned and pressed the play button. an automative voice called out.
First new message : Hey you crazy kids its Tony, by the way Bells, you should really learn to answer you cell phone, remember that thing thats like a home phone but portable! Anyway just checking up on you and your little house mate, give me a call. End of message to delete this message press- Bella deleted it.
Next unheard message : Hey Isabella its Linda! You, Me, Jack, and your little boy toy, at Tonkos Friday! Be there! End of message. Bella hit delete once again.
Next unheard message : Isabella its Ben, listen Im going to be there at 5 with Molly, I swear to god you better be home. Bye. End of message to delete this message..

Bella's eyes widened. She had forgotten. Looking tat the time its read 4:48pm.

Loki could feel the tention coming from her.
"Are you alright Isabella? Who are Ben and Molly? Bella looked at him.
"They-" A buzz came from the door. Bella went over to the intercom.
"Who is it?"
"Ben." Bella smashed her head ito the wall.
"Your early."
"By 10 minutes, now let us up!"
She buzzed them up and placed her head in her hands. Loki stood, clearly confused.
"Isabella, who is coming up?"
A knock came to the door. Bella opened it to come face with a tall dark haired man, with dark blue eyes. He had a strong chin with stubbled of hair from not shaving. He wore a dark brown jacket over a white shirt, with jeans. Beside him stood a blonde girl looking to be about 10. Her hair was short and her eyes where bright blue, she looked much like Bella. Loki froze, she looked much like Bella. Bella gave a week smile.
" Ben, Molly, this is my friend Leon. Leon." She stated turning to him.
"This is -" Ben stepped forward and intorupted.
"Bellas husband Ben and daughter Molly, so nice to meet you." Ben held out his hand. Loki looked down and lifted his own hand to meet Bens.
"Ex-husband, mind you." Bella stated while crossing your arms. Ben looked back at her witha small frown.
"Well you've made that pretty clear haven't you." His voice was low but autiable.
The blonde child looked between her mother and father with a blank expression. Ben walked over to her and kissed her forhead.
"I will see you in a few days." Molly nodded.
"Bye dad." Ben walked over to the door and opened it. He gave Bella one last look before closing it behind him.

"I thought you didnt have any children?" Molly pulled her small suit case to the couch.
"She doesnt." With that said the small child left the room leaving Loki to stare at Bellas unreadable face.
"Isabella." Bella looked at Leon.
"Im sorry Leon, I forgot." Loki walked over to her.
"Why did she say you didnt have any children?" Bella rested her chin in her palm.
"I never said I didnt' have children, I just never said I did.When me and Ben got divorced, I was not capable of raising a child. I didnt have the money or space, so Ben got her. Because I was so willing about it, Molly took that as a sign that I didnt love her anymore, that I abandoned her. I try to tell her other wise, but everytime she talks about moving in with me that changes because I feel she is better off with her dad. Ben has a great job and can afford to take care of her the way she deserves. Molly is to young to understand that now, but when she gets older she will."
Loki placed his hand on her shoulder.
"I supposed its hard to grow up with divorced parents." Bella looked up at him.
"Its hard growing up in general."

Molly unpacked her things in the spare bedroom. Loki walked over and noticed this.
"Uh wha.." Molly looked up at him.
"What?" Loki felt akward.
A hand was placed on his shoulder. He looked back to find Bella motioning him to her room.
"You can sleep in here with me or on the couch, its your choice. "
Loki froze. In here? With her? Bella laughed a little.
"Well dont look so baffled by the idea, we are both grown ups and I have plenty of space, I'm not going to try and rape you or anything, I'm not Linda."
Its not you I am worried about.
"If you are uncomfortable you can sleep on the couch though."
Loki took a moment to realize this was the first time he had actually been in Bella's room before. He had been here for over a month and it was not until now he had seen what it looked like. The room was an alright size with white walls and hard wood floors. the bed was large and had a variety of pillows of different sizes and colors, most of which were red,orange,and white. The bed cover matched this. Infront of the bed, against the wall was a drawer that held a Tv much like the one in the living room but smaller. Two lar windows were st the far end of the room, between which was another dresser, that had many pictures on top of it. Loki recognised faces of Bella and Molly, as well as Bella and Ben, some other photos had Bella in them, but with people he did not know. Near the bed was a closet and a night stand with a small clock on it.

"I will sleep here, only if you are ok with it, I would not want to intrude." Bella shook her head.
"Its not a problem really. Well Im going to get dinner started." Bella walked out of the room to the kitchen.
Loki was about to follow but was stopped by the small blonde child who now occupied his room.
"Are you dating my mom?" Loki was caught off guard with this question.
"Um, no." Molly put her hands on her hips.
"Then why is she letting you sleep in the bed with her? Only people who have relations do that."
Loki did not know how to answer the child. He was not 'dating Bella', but the girl did raise a point.
"I live here because I have no where else to go. If your mother is comfortable with sharing a bed with me, I will not lower myself to the couch." Molly tilted her head.
"Why dont you have anywhere else to go? Are you homeless? You dont look homeless." Loki glared at the child.
"And you dont look like a nosey pest, but looks can be deciving." Loki slipped past her, ignoring the iciest glare he could receive from a ten year old girl.
"You must not be very smart, considering your homeless." Molly stated following him. Loki rolled his eyes.
"How did you lose your money? Drugs, heath problems. gambling?" Loki turned to the girl.
"You ask to many questions." Molly crosed her arms.
"Maybe you dont ask enough, my parents taught me to question everything." Loki bent down to Mollys level.
"That may be a good quality in most cases girl, but that can backfire, some questions remain questions for a reason, some answers are better left unsaid, do not ask questions when you are afraid you will not like the answer."
Loki looked into Mollys light blue eyes. Eyes that reminded him of Isabella in everyway. Loki stood silently and made his way to the couch. Sitting down he grabbed a book from off the coffee table.
"Did you do that?" Loki looked up to see Molly infront of him once more.
"Did I what?" Loki tried his best to hide any emotions from seeping infront of this girl.
"Did you ask a question that you didnt like the answer to?" Loki hesitated to responde.
"Molly leave him alone, I know how you are with questions." Bellas voice came from the kitchen.
Molly looked up at her and back at Loki for a breife moment, before she silently got up and went to her room.

Isabella, Loki and Molly sat at the small kitchen table and ate dinner. It was nothing special, just some chicken, rice and peas, cut up and mixed together. They ate in silence, with nothing but the light clatering of the silverware against the bowls to distrube them. Bella found herself upset by the silence, she wanted to talk to Molly, find out how her days hav been when she wasnt with her, but how could she start without sounding desperate like she always did. So how is Chicago honey?Hot days of June right? No, that just sounds bad.
"How's school?"
Hows school? Hows school? Oh god...
"Fine." Bella sighed inwardly.
"Excited to start 5th grade? Molly shrugged.
"I guess, one step closer to highschool, then collage." Bella mixed her food around her bowl and Loki silently continued to eat while looking back and forth between Molly and Bella.
"What do you want to be when you grow up?" Molly looked at her mother with a bored look and shrugged.
"I dont know, what even is growing up? When does a person really grow up? Dad says the reason I cant live with you is because you said you cant you cant help someone grow up when cant do it yourself."
Loki looked at Bella to see her response, but she just looked at Molly with her mouth slightly open, unable to speak. The truth was Bella did say that. Ben and Bella got married very young, had Molly very young. It was when Molly was born Bella started to realise that she wasnt a kid anymore, but had no idea on how to be an adult. When Molly was 4 Bella seperated from Ben, and when she was 6 they got divorced. Bella understood why, Ben was tiered of waiting for her to be ready for her to get her life together.
"Im done." Molly said, picking up her now empty bowl and placing into the sink before making her way to her room. "Isabella..." Loki started, but Bella put her hand up to stop him.
"It's fine Leon."

Bella got up from the table and made her way to Molly's room.
"Molly?" Opening the door she looked at her daughter sitting on the air mattress, brushing her hair.
"Hum?" Bella walked over to her and sait on the bed, sinking in slightly as she did do.
"You want to know what growing up is I will tell you. Growing up means learning what life is. When you're little, you have a set of ideals, standards, criteria, plans, outlooks, and you think that you have to sit around and wait for them to happen to you and then life will work. But life isn't like that, for anybody; you can't fall in love with a standard, you have to fall in love with a person. You can't live in a criteria, you have to live your life. You can't wait for your plans to materialize, because they may never materialize the way you think they will. You can't wait to watch your ideals and standards walk up to you, because you can't know what's yours until you have it. I always say, always take the first chance in case you never get a second one, but growing up takes that even one step further, growing up means that you have to hold on to what you have, when you have it, because what you have- that's yours- and all the ideals and criteria you have set in your head, those aren't yours, because those haven't happened to you."
Molly stared at her mother, unsure of what to say next.
"Your not grown up are you? Because grown ups hold onto what they have, and you let me and dad go."

Loki stood outside the door way and listened to Bella and Molly talk, maybe it was bad of him, but he could not help it.

Bella looked at Molly with a soft expression.
"I did let you go, but only because I knew you would be better off. I cant give you the things your dad can." Molly shook her head.
"You could if you were with him!"Bella could see the small tears forming in her daughter eyes.
"Honey, sometimes these things happen. Everything changes. People, places,and feelings. There is no way you can be ready for it. I loved your father, maybe I still do, but there is so much more to it then that, we cant just rebuild the broken. You can glue a mirror back together, but you can still see the crack."
Bella took Molly into her arms and leaned against the wall. Molly quietly sobed a little, holding onto her mother tightly. Bella petted Molly's hair and shushed her sorrow.s
"You know, when I met your father, we always talked about kids, I would tell him if I should have a daughter…Instead of “Mom”, she’s gonna call me “Point B.” Because that way, she knows that no matter what happens, at least she can always find her way to me. And I’m going to paint the solar system on the back of her hands so that she has to learn the entire universe before she can say 'Oh, I know that like the back of my hand.'
She’s gonna learn that this life will hit you, hard, in the face, wait for you to get back up so it can kick you in the stomach. But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air. There is hurt, here, that cannot be fixed by band-aids or poetry, so the first time she realizes that Wonder-woman isn’t coming, I’ll make sure she knows she doesn’t have to wear the cape all by herself. Because no matter how wide you stretch your fingers, your hands will always be too small to catch all the pain you want to heal. Believe me, I’ve tried."

Molly wipped her eyes and looked up at her mother. Bella looked down at her, and caressed her cheek.
"And 'Baby,' I’ll tell her 'don’t keep your nose up in the air like that, I know that trick, you’re just smelling for smoke so you can follow the trail back to a burning house so you can find the boy who lost everything in the fire to see if you can save him. Or else, find the boy who lit the fire in the first place to see if you can change him.' But I know that she will anyway, so instead I’ll always keep an extra supply of chocolate and rain boats nearby, ‘cause there is no heartbreak that chocolate can’t fix. Okay, there’s a few heartbreaks chocolate can’t fix. But that’s what the rain boots are for, because rain will wash away everything if you let it."

Loki listened to Bellas words in silence, taking in the love that she had for her daughter.

"I want her to see the world through the underside of a glass bottom boat," Bella continued.
"to look through a magnifying glass at the galaxies that exist on the pin point of a human mind. Because that’s how my mom taught me. That there’ll be days like this, 'There’ll be days like this my momma said' when you open your hands to catch and wind up with only blisters and bruises. When you step out of the phone booth and try to fly and the very people you wanna save are the ones standing on your cape. When your boots will fill with rain and you’ll be up to your knees in disappointment and those are the very days you have all the more reason to say 'thank you,' ‘cause there is nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it’s sent away."

Bella laid down, taking Molly with her, resting the small childs head on her shoulder.

"You will put the 'wind' in win some lose some, you will put the 'star' in starting over and over, and no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute be sure your mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life. And yes, on a scale from one to over-trusting I am pretty damn naive but I want her to know that this world is made out of sugar. It can crumble so easily but don’t be afraid to stick your tongue out and taste it.
'Baby,' I’ll tell her 'remember your mom is a worrier but your dad is a warrior and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes who never stops asking for more.' Remember that good things come in threes and so do bad things and always apologize when you’ve done something wrong but don’t you ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining. Your voice is small but don’t ever stop singing and when they finally hand you heartbreak, slip hatred and war under your doorstep and hand you hand-outs on street corners of cynicism and defeat, you tell them that they really ought to meet your mother.'"

Bella looked down at her sleeping child and smiled. Kissing her on the head, Bella slipped out of Molly's grasp, turned out the light, and walked out the door, closing it quietly behind her. She made her way to her room to see Leon under the covers, reading book.
"Everything alright?" He asked, glancing up at her. Bella nodded before getting ready for bed herself.


Below is Ben and Molly :)



Please put up a sequal. This was so good and I love it. ")

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I really enjoyed chapter 10. :)

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Chapter 3 was really good.

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